Here's a Kiss for you!! <3

Yes! First thing after assembly today I went to the classroom and get my file back. Jane accompanied me. So nice of her. Anyway, my file's bursting now. Its damn full la. Eh, why aren't the more related people happy about my file...

I don't know, I think a lot of people misinterpreted me. Poems I may have written doesn't mean it concerns me what. Like what about the toilet poem man. Just happened to be depressed. Again. Today. I'm a damn depressing person okay. So don't come near me.

Anyway, I cleared things out with MANY people. I'm kind of in a good mood right now. I felt abit crazy this afternoon. As . in . really . crazy. The sad kind of crazy, not the happy kind, mind you. This Tracy thought I was suicidal. Wanted to borrow penknife from her, then she said, "For what??" and gave me that kind of look...Haha.

OH YA!!! I can kill my that Art teacher. HE AH! Okay, this is not the first time alright. I waited like dunno how many hours for Art lesson then when I went to the Art Room, guess what. On the door was pasted "No Art today. Mr Tan has Med. appointment."

Please place your _____ on the table and let me CHOP IT OFF!!!

Haha. kidding. But one thing good was that I managed to do ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL the unneeded homework, as in tutorials. See how hardworking I am?? Cannot, I lost a year of my life already. I totally felt like kissing my file, but people will think I'm crazy or something, and its kinda...dirty.

I tell you, I'm on a downslope anxiety mode right now. I'm starting to panic about the 3 art designs. I'm dead loh. OKAY, I'm so gonna do it on Saturday. Tomorrow's IETL day. Haha. I think it's quite a waste of time. Somemore tomorrow is PJ's open house. Well, because of my handsome Mr Tay I'll just lose my face over here.

PEOPLE INTERESTED PLEASE COME TO PJ'S OPEN HOUSE!!!!

Shit lo, heard from friends that Mr Tay was dancing in last week's Chinese New Year concert. Damn myself for not being there. Damn myself even more because I'd rather not be there, for the dumb class interaction. Ha..I'll just start fantasizing about him...I mean, he's handsome for his age loh, and you can't find any VP more good looking like him. Can anot??? Hee.
Oh dear, heard he might be gay.

By the way, ohmygod I think I found out who's the person that wants my number. Julie asked me again today. Its kind of wierd la.

I was hugging Tracy because I was nearly crying. Yes, in school. In front of everyone. But who cares la. Today was someone's birthday in my class. They bought chocolate cake. I give them the toilet one lo.

Sorry YY about this morning. I don't know. Think I started to go crazy early in the morning. Couldn't concentrate properly. I miss you! You're so missing from my trips to the Noodles stall, playing badminton, singing made-up poem songs about people, talking about life itself, me trying to bite your chubby arm. Maybe I'll go hug her tomorrow too.

I had PE today. Volleyball. Tell you, it was kind of a disaster for me when it came to playing 3-3. This China guy in my class, BY..OHMYGOD lo. My team was against his. Can die leh. I really very scared of him. The pervertic eyes...AHHH. Well, I dug the ball many times practicing then its like my hands got blood clots now. Looks kinda cool actually. I'm hoping it'll stay abit longer.

I'll end here now. Bye =)



Senseless screaming
Footsteps nearing
Doorhinge creaking
Child starts sobbing.

This is MY day!

Hello everybody!
Okay, wait, I'm damn happy right now. Guess what???

MY FILE'S BEEN FOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ohmyshittinggod. Can you believe it. I'm so freaking happy la. And this day couldn't be better. With the burgerboy and all that too =D

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! But too bad, I already left school when I received the msg. Shit lo. First thing tomorrow I'll go get my beloved file. Its mine its mine its mine!

Anyway, I went town with Tracy today. For awhile, since we ended school early and haven't gone out for quite a long time. We talked quite abit, didn't do much, but I don't know, it was fun. Yay...

I think it must be the curse. Maybe the person kena me curse then want to give back. Haha, no la. Just kidding. I think it was the prayer I did on last Thursday night. I prayed if I got my file back, I'm willing to lose one year of my life. Yes, I did. Opps, there goes one year of my life.

Today's a really good day. And Ms Chan understood my REAL reason for not going to school la. HAHA. Thanks, Ms Chan. But you know what? I bought new Maths notes already la. SO sian. But the 70cents is worth it. I don't care. As long as I get my file back.

And about everything else, today was really fine. Today's GP was about Blogging again. There was this girl that said bloggers are usually simple-minded. I could have decapitated her on the spot. Like whatever. well, my mood can't be spoiled. I don't care.

I should start on my Chem tutorial now. I'm supposed to be hardworking and thank whoever who took up my that one-year-of-life-for-my-file trade. Yipee. Will update again. Bye!!




This elation, I will never forget.

Where's my chocolate Big M??

I'm sick.

Having horrible cramps right now. And I have serious diarrhoea also. Been to the toilet for like 4 times already. I wonder why I have so much waste matter to pass out. Told my parents I'm not going with them for visiting today. Didn't feel like also. I only want to see someone right now.

Haven't got much ideas for my art project. 3 designs..I have la, which are all crap lo. I mean, why can't they give me a more 'ME' title other than 'Reaching Beyond'?? The title sounds so promising, like so hopeful. Can the Art SYF people like give me a darker title or something. Damn. I'm not going to get selected by Mr Tan for the competition.

I don't know, feel quite sad right now. I should start working on my art piece soon. Musn't be lazy. School starts tomorrow again. I'm sick of school. I'll always be sick of school unless I get my file back soon.

By the way, my red packet money increased to $276. All thanks to some neighbours who came to my house yesterday night. Yay. I think this is the record year. Never gotten so much before.

I've read finished the 3rd book of Vampire Hunter D : Demon Deathchase.
Its quite alright. More like the original Vampire Hunter D movie, 'Bloodlust'.

Haven't been sleeping much and well these few days. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I should end here. Bye




I just want to see you again and be with you.

Let Death consume her soul.

Okay, Happy New Year. Haven't been quite in a New Year mood. Quite sick of travelling around. But no choice, want to get red packet money must go people's house. Anyway, the first day was kind of miserable, got like only $134, but today it increased to $254!!

Alright, I'm feeling quite excited. Suddenly feel quite rich, although its not much. Guess what my niece got on her first day...$600..

I mean like, HUH?

Haha. Her bank now got more money than mine okay. Can you believe that she's 4 months old and already worth more money than me. Ahhhhhhh.

Change of mood. I don't know. Feeling kind of moody right now. I feel like breaking or cutting something. Why can't it just go away. I'm so sick of everything. I really dislike the life I'm leading.




Disguises she puts on
Different masks she has
Darkness clouds the horizon
Beasts will catch you unawares.

Monsters lurk when midnight comes
Demons work precured scalp sums
Running through the Blood Orchard
Devil's snare leaves her legs severed.

Anguished cries travels through black canopy
Hatred sweeps like gusts across the valley
Nightmares for sinner's death be gory
Night descends into realms of glory.

Break and free her from these chains,
Release this pain that drives her insane.
Only because of the initial trust,
Have she fallen into this trap once more.

No longer does she wants to dwindle,
Desire gone to play her fate's gamble.
Why she gives when there's nothing in return,
Please give reasons why she let the eternal soul burn.

Should we stop this interminable cycle,
Or should we allow hope to prolong this trivial?
The morning rays betray her sleep,
Why have she fallen in so deep?

Seemingly ashamed of her own foolishness,
As these emotions caused this obsequiousness.
Everything appears fine before you now,
But this wrenching inside she cannot allow.

Show her the path to resume the bliss again,
They need a guide to direct them from this fray.
How could one forget with such disdain,
And allow once ocean skies turn gray?

If you acknowledge this please never turn from her,
Take her away to the state of Euphorian.
The gloom of the nights where nightmares unfold,
Dark corners are where she hides from the cold.




May Death have mercy on her heart, the Devil's fruit.

"What a dance am I Leading" - Jack the Ripper.

WARNING : NO COMMENTS.

I left my file in F4-29. And its all because of the dumb chinese teacher. She wanted to change classrooms, because the one we were in had a faulty projecter.

Someone freaking stole my file.

Yes, taking it away from me. What right do you have. It has my name all over the notes, tutorials, papers. Shit you. I curse you till the day you die. Even if you do want to return me the file or hand it to the General Office I curse you. Because you took it. Why can't you just shitting leave it there.

You nosey idiot. Yes, the person who took my file, I curse you with all my heart and soul, if I do have any. Those drawings, things that drawn once will never be drawn again. Tutorials, done meticulously, gone. NOTES, GONE.


And may your physical entity burn in flames,
Shall your psychological mind be plagued with infectious diseases,
Will the life of yours be ever uneventful,
Be something important of yours that gets stolen as well.


I HATE YOU. Even if I do not know who you may be, but I'll still hate you still.



Anyway, I'm feeling real sad right now. Its certainly because of someone. The person who's missing now. Its not like I want to be unhappy. We can't help what may befall upon us. See what you'll be like, in my position. What my mother said. All the humility. You wouldn't understand, not totally. Its how you deal with it.

You know what? If it makes you happy, I'll change. If you hate facing me because I'm a depressed shit, then you might just prefer a superficial idiot. I won't tell you all this, because you know what I found out? Even being open is not that beneficial anymore. As in face to face.

I didn't go school because of all this shit. I'm not targetting at everyone. Its just, I don't know. A huge misunderstanding occured between us. I'll just be looking really happy in school from now on. If you are reading this, which will be in a few weeks time, then you'll see.

As I've said. Everyone's hypocritical. Don't say you might not be. Because know it or not, it's our nature. So don't blame me, dear sir, dear everyone.




Once again, comments are not warranted. Thank you.

Memories I could not recall.

Okay everyone. YOU KNOW WHAT?

I had a 'real' great night yesterday. After putting down the phone I asked my mother if she could fetch me to school tomorrow because I was still tired from the evening pe. Guess what she said.

"You better go to school yourself. Later see my boss sending his son there, so embarrassing."

Ya, like whatever okay?! I know, all because I'm a ______ you didn't have to say it with such disgrace and detest for me giving you all this 'trouble' k? I was so pissed off I could have decapitated her right on the spot.

You should have heard the way she said it. And I should be counted as 'lucky' that she said it the night before. I can't could not sleep and all that. But wasn't so affected the next morning. Don't know, nearly cried again. But I didn't. Because I was thinking of Skippy. If I didn't cry for him, then I shouldn't cry on crap like that.

Anyway, had my first Art lesson today. It's quite cool actually. Like, I don't know. The Art Room's real cramped though. And we're supposed to do some poster design competition thing for SYF. HUH??? SYF!? I thought it's like for Bands and Chior and all that...

My art friend asked if I was attached. Seems like some J1 guy wants to know me. Hello? I'm one year older you know! Seriously, I don't know what to think. Got a shock of my life. I thought she msged the wrong person.

Oh dear, YY told me my class is going to interact with my old class. Can don't want anot. So awkward. Not forgetting what that GW said. URGH, everytime I think abt GW, his BO will suddenly surface out of nowhere in my nose. I am a bad example.

I have such long breaks now la. I did my whole bio tutorial during the 2hours break. And I read the book that Des bought for me. Ohmygod. So exciting!!! The way his victims die. Damn cool. I was eating M&Ms in the library. I was quite afraid that the Shark would just shout,

"GIRL!!! YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO EAT IN THE LIBRARY!!!"

My living room tv is like servicing. Its so bored at home now. Can't wait to continue on my book. Like what Des said. We'll need to sign up for discount card soon. By the way, I got a blue black on my right toe now. I hit it against a step. I nearly died. So pain!!!! The nail went in, got blood clot. I was trying to pull out the clot.

Oh ya, my Yeti!!! I'm so proud of her!!! She went for Pioneerama's auditions. Wanted to see. Went to watch last year's one. I quite like those Hockey people playing. I'll give her good luck kisses. HAHA!! Kidding, YY!!!

Miss all of my friends. My timetable's crazy. Can't stand it. Will end here now. Bye



"Demons are among us, and we must learn to spot them before they feed on us."

Die DIe DIE!!!!

I'm so much happier now. I think I'm really emotional, and thats not very good right. Sorry, burger boy. Remember what you promised!!!! And I'll remember mine =)

Anyway, I TOTALLY can't understand some people. I thought someone was the one who said the dumb thing is over. HELLO!? Whoever started it again? Like whatever man.

FREAKING HAND OVER OUR DOUGH!!!!!!!

And this is for you, Ducky.
You should get some people to harvest those hairs on that huge mole on your right arm.

I miss the holidays. Why can't holidays come to no end??? I want holidays with no homework and no worries and no nagging people and!!!!!!!

I watched 'The Cave' and 'Exorcist' today. Both have quite scarey parts. But the plot..Ha, don't know what to say. Can't believe someone slept throughout 'The Cave' la...What a big piggie. Haha!!! I miss smelling you! Anyway, I'm really tired already. Should end now. Bye!



Nails screeching
Floorboards creaking
Someone's leaving
The fallen rising.

This was a real shitty day. Dammit.

GP lesson was about blogging and I went to research about it on the Internet just now. I have all along thought that no matter how the Singapore Government restricts people from making racist comments, there will always be some who think racist thoughts like once in awhile. Its just simply that people are too lazy or can be bothered, or, do not want to get caught up by the law if they do voice out.

Its like, yes yes, we have all learnt about the racial riots last time, but you know what MOE??? It just made me kind of feel angry about Malaysia when they sort of implied about how they instigated so many rumours and stuff to cause all those riots. When I read the History textbook in the past, I really felt kind of angry. It's like blogging, becareful of how you phrase things. See how History affects me, Mrs Kek!!!

It really kind of dumb how people were sentenced by the Court under the Sedition Act. It'll just make people fear the law, but it wouldn't stop racist thoughts from forming, sometimes right. Anyway, I just read about student bloggers complaining about teachers...well, I'm one of them. But what I said is true okay! Anyway, nevermind.

I was really feeling depressed today. I asked my mother about that Andy Ea this morning, before I bathed, whether he was her boss's son, who is in PJ now. She remembered and when I was about to leave the house, she came out of her stupid room and said,

"You better not talk to him. So disgraceful."

I was really hurt by what she said, and then I got really angry. The middle finger was practically growing from my hands to point towards her. But you know what? I really DO NOT freaking want to fuck her. Sorry, but I'm really angry. She didn't have to say that right. She only cares about her stupid face. You know what? I just totally want to peel off her skin, just that I don't want to get my hands all oily. Ohmygod. I was so shitting pissed.

Anyway, I was really upset when I met Des. Don't know. It was nearly to the point of crying and I was trying to tell myself not be so dumb to cry over the maternal giver of half of my 46 chromosomes. But he kept asking and I don't know. I would have told him anyway. Don't know, then he got angry and frowning and talked to me in that irritated tone of voice. I mean, why can't he just console me or something.

I got even more pissed off and walked damn fast. Ya ya, I know I got short legs but I can walk fast when I want to k?! Anyway, I don't know. Really quite sad someone took like 9hours to msg me again... =( So annoying.

Stop it okay, burger boy.

Anyway, we're better now. Hmm.
I'm so gross-ed out by a certain someone. I'm not pulled over to Jes's side. I was on her side all along. I mean, I have always thought this way. Just when the point came to that you refused to admit that the money was owed, is just, I don't know, kind of ridiculous.

I just can't simply wait for this coming Saturday. I really hope that my father will let me go out, since I haven't gone out since the past week! YAY! And!!! Des and I went to see the Gerbils today. Ohmygod, they're so cute. Really fell in love with them. How could some rodents be so chubby and furry and cute!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Btw, today YY and Ain, well, all J2s had Maths and Chem test. WOA. Hey you girls, I hope you pass. I'll pray for you all k! Actually, I'm better at cursing leh. Today had pe. Ohmygod. Can you believe I got a first warning from Doris Lim. Wa lao, she was like saying I had no PE attire. Can you believe it?? If I had no PE attire and she marked me down as that, then isn't it I'm supposed to be running nude?????

I ran 2.4km today. I'm pretty sure that I'll get butt cramps after this. Shit, I really should start leading a healthy lifestyle now. BUT!!!! I have no CCA, so you know what? I should just shut-it. ARGH.



I'm on my way to Fatty-dom now.

The Unknown.

D'espairs Ray.

This is what happens when crazy people get stuck in school in heavy rain with nothing to do.















Haven updated for a long time. Anyway, to tell you, yesterday I went out with my family for dinner and we went to my eldest sister's house. Turned out my sister bought clothes for my other sister and I. Wa! She bought this nice skirt, quite like the colour and pattern of it. I think I should go down for a swim and tan my legs or something soon. My thighs got the tan line, and that's gross.

This saves me time and money to buy New Year clothes myself.

Also, Helena can turn now. She's drooling because her gums are itchy. Teething, I suppose. Still remember the time when Yina's younger brother was teething too. He was crying like mad. Haha.

Poor Cookey. She can't be treated like she was before the birth of Helena now. She get caned when she barks too much and too loudly. (And there is no such thing as a soft bark from her.)
BUT! I'll still treat her the same. Love to use my toes to grab her fur. HAHA.

I really hope my subj combi will be approved. REALLY!

Btw, today's first GP lesson was about blogging. Reminds me of last year's promo paper..Life is getting real mundane and there isn't much to look foward to accept the changing of my subj combi and hoping that I'd see my handsome Mr Tay. Hee. He's handsome for an old man, can anot?!

Today Yeti was really depressed. Well, YY just cheer up, alright! I haven't eaten those slices of red colour things! I'll treat you to an OJ soon, k? Hee. And has anyone noticed that the ice-cream uncle has real awful hair-style...Ohmygod. Haha. I miss Yati a lot. Eventhough we haven't been together much this year, I just hope they'd think the same way about me too. Those times we played badminton...

Later got tuition at 7.30pm. I'm starting to get real pissed off with her. Argh. So late la. Haven't even eaten my dinner yet.

OH YA! I really cannot believe this. JANE! If you're reading this, hope you don't get shocked. Haha. I just found out from YY that Andy Ea was from table tennis and he really is my mother's boss's son. ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL these years she's been talking about them la and now...!!!! Oh shit. Another day I'll tell you all that I've heard from my mother.
I tell you, its fated.

Okay, gtg, bye!!! :D



I really miss my burgerboy.

Pure Thrill

Beacon of Hell


He'll make you eat your words
In ways too strange to be absurd
Filling the six-feet tomb with dirt
Beating you up like he's gone berserk.

Back and forth
Up and down
Inside and out
Pleasure, without.

Shave the flesh to the bone
Sneering with spite in his tone
Fearing your way to be alone
Amassing blood in revered cone.

Darkly deep we go all the way
Sometime soon he'll make you pay
Take the heed each to utter and say
Never ever commence this certain fray.

Poignant sorrows
High and low
Ring up the toll
Bill your soul.




We'll take you down

Dimness casting away the bleak insanity of our lives.

To Senior J1s.


Please don't hurl words of abuse
Don't ever try to say they're of no use
Innocent and convicted, the poorly accused
What you said and think just lit the fuse.

You say as though they're all hopeless
Complicated outward show of dourness
Their self-consciousness is always there
The memories of the unforgotten leaves them bare.

Every moment made known a 'disgrace'
All the time you care only about your face
In mistakes caused by their 'stupidity'
What might hold them back is humility.

But fear not for their future's sake
Fruitful outcomes they will create
They rise up against conformity
Standing strongly past a wasted destiny.

Curses.

One more time for you, GW!!!!!!!!!

Mass hairiness.


First week of school was really boring. Not that I attended school that many days...I was only in school for two days la.

Anyway, will be quite difficult to get to see Yeti and Yati now. And!!!!!!!!! NEW SCHOOL RULES.

-NO ANKLE SOCKS!

Hello? Just when I got used to using ankle socks, the principal wants to set this kind of dumb rule. Is she still in the Secondary school mode!? This is a JC okay. Which JC got this kind of rule. Like thinking it'll change our school image will make us shift to a higher standard will work. Whatever. Someone should just behead her.

And, I tell you. I HATE GAYBRIEL WONG.

He should be happy enough that I don't laugh and tell the whole class on the first day of school about his dumb BO okay. That's mean la. But what about what he said when he first stepped into the shit class.

WOW. I'm such a bad example. Nobody in S05 should have anything that has got to be in common with me k?

And that ass told Ms Chew I was weak in his class all along. Er...is there something wrong with him?
Nvm. I'm so pissed with everything. I'm a weakling.

My handphone bill is expected. Didn't overshoot, but my father kept complaining. Why can't he just shut up. And about the dog. I feel like screaming and stabbing something or someone right now.

Can you believe my tuition teacher wanted to have tuition at 8.30am on a Saturday morning! Is she like crazy or what. Who in the world wakes up so early to have tuition!? I'm so sick of everything.





We live to suffer, so why live?

What way better to start off a New Year...Shit.

Alright, this is damn dumb. Hello, MICH, if you said we were childish to spam ppl's blog, yes, so what if we did spam Charmaine's blog. Regynna's was not by us anyway. And, the most important thing is, YOU spammed before too. Right back at you.

I can't believe they want to go someone's house to talk things over on New Year's day. That's really dumb. To start off a year full of shit. Hello, make it like some other day la. I don't know. Can test some debating or rather some negotiating or maybe...scold until you faint kungfu moves.

Anyways, can't believe someone said we're childish. If some people were not childish enough, then just say sorry la. You should know better than to owe people money right. And Charmaine still said we hid behind names..Okay, I admit I did spam her blog. She said SHE DIDN'T MIND, OR RATHER DIDN'T CARE. So...? Hello miss, what are you trying to get at?

If they didn't believe we said that we didn't spam Regynna's tagboard, you can always check the IP addresses right. Damn dumb. Like, whatever. And, since MICH said she thinks she knows about my so-called terrible childhood, that means you're reading this blog. And to tell you the truth, like you, it's friends of ours that spammed her, like you trying to help Regynna.

And, if your blog got bloody spammed, and because Regynna's was, it doesn't mean we're the only ones that dislike you. Seriously, why would we even try to go there and spam you.

Charmaine might have said that she thinks that for a person to ask for money back takes up a lot of skin, what about a person that keeps asking people for it? Does she feel guilty? She said she did. But words are not like action. Where's our money? OFFERED??

And please, like when she asked you if we mind that she borrowed money from us, even if we didn't think it, who would even say that we mind? This is a cumulative effect, $2 almost everyday, times 30(counting times she may have borrowed more, therefore weekends counted)
is $60++--.

This is only one month. Remember, it was from our pocket money.

Imagine if its a year? Surely, even you, Mich, would mind. Don't say you wouldn't. Humans are selfish. And its mean if we do tell her in the face that we mind lending her money almost everyday to the accumulated amount, its not like we're that rich either.

People are hypocritical. Surely, if you're as matured as you think you are, then wouldn't you have thought of that.

Also, to tell us to brush up on our English. Don't even try to start on that area of topic. Talk about English, ha. I could just blast some super-imposable literary terms upon you, and you wouldn't even know what hit you.
My eyes are like rolling with the whites showing.

Hmm, also, about 'Mich the Witch'. What more can you expect. Your name isn't that uncommon anyway. Don't give credit to yourself if you think that 'Mei Ker the Faker' is really that original as well.

Charmaine still said Jeslyn's her loyal reader. Hey, if you didn't read Jeslyn's blog as well, how come you'd even think of the title, "Jeslyn the Loan Shark" or whatever. And it wasn't until someone telling Jeslyn then she wouldn't go Charmaine's blog.

Well, contradicting the contradictions of the contradicted is one of my hobbies. Watch what you all say. And about the meeting. Don't try to get us to go allllllllllllllllllllllllll the way to YOU, why not you come to us, or maybe some neutral spot.

Most importantly, calling people names? If she were a true friend she wouldn't even type on her blog so fast after the money returning ORDEAL to call people slutty bitches and whatever shit.

Hur hur hur. Remember who called you a fucking bitch.(Sorry to the innocent eyes) Who helped you to talk it out with the girl who had a duck called ROY? Or maybe shout it out, haha. And you told us to forgive her. I thought someone said she'd never forgive that duck girl.

If you said you didn't owe us so much...don't even bother. You might have owed too many poeple to remember. I can say so much more. Once more, it wasn't us(Jeslyn, Mei Ker and I) who spammed Regynna, or Mich's tagboard.

But yes, if you say we hid behind screens. Then you're wrong. Did you even think we are that cowardly. Don't think you're the only one with friends. We have too.





MANY

Lovely, just lovely.

Someone real cute took this photo of Patrick 'Fatpants' on his TV!!!!

And..That's Billy Martin from GC. Ahhh





















Okay, first of all, I found out something that was bound to have been found out.

HELLO SHAWN!!!!

TELLING YOUR FRIENDS YOUR REASON WAS THAT I'M SCAREY IS TOTALLY DUMB, AND DON'T THINK I DON'T KNOW IT.

Bloody hell. That was so freaking lame from him.

Anyway, went to the hospital today and they fixed this ECG device on me. Feel kinda wierd now. Tomorrow still have to go back and remove it. Also, I'm dreading skl to reopen. I'm like in self-denial.

Then, I can't believe some person called Mich is helping her. Thats like so wierd. Anyway, she doesn't know what stuff Regynna sort of said about her in letters about a certain guy last time, and its true. Since when have I written any lie here. And, I DID NOT SPAM HER TAGBOARD. So just freaking get off my back.

You could have asked almost any girl in 4E1 or others close to them that she really did borrow quite a sum of money. Maybe things just got exagerrated. People should just talk things out. Alright, this is damn lame, I'm not even really involved. If she could call 'Mei Ker the Faker' (If there's really such a word as that) and she just implicated me, so well, 'Mich the Witch' ( The name I bestowed upon her) suits her just fine. Or maybe Bitch? But nevermind. Kind of mean anyway.

What's Your True Color?

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.



Lastly, because of what 'DEAR' Shawn said, everyone should be wary of me,


I'M SCAREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes!

Farewell fellow pandas!

YY and I got the same shoes. Thats half an octopus.












Ohmygod. I'm super broke now. I bought new shoes yesterday and a birthday present for my friend. I had fun yesterday. Very happy. I don't want school to start! AHHHHHHH.

Oh yea, Ain's birthday is coming. Happy Birthday!!! :D

Hur

Has anyone noticed anything about the show, King Kong...

I mean, this is the first time I'm watching it and not the older version of it but they said it's something like the old one. Well, the thing is..

HOW COME BULLETS, SIZE SO SMALL COMPARED TO KING KONG, COULD KILL HIM AND NOT THOUSAND-TONNES PER SQUARE INCH BITES FROM 3 T-REXES???

Ya, you all might say one stupid bullet shot into his heart. So what. T-Rex teeth can bite into his chest too. AND, King Kong has fur and a super-thick hide for skin, how far could bullets penetrate in? The oversize gorilla could take on 3 T-Rexes but not fighter planes from our past. Not like there were missiles anyway.

Pinky and monster teeth.

Remember I told you all about my collection of teeth from fishes..I took a picture the other day. Damn cool. And sharp.

And...this is a 3300 ticket-exchanged pink elephant! Hee. It can be unhooked to become a pillow! Thank you!


Anyway, I played badminton with someone yesterday. Very fun. I'm totally unfit. Like I didn't exercise for 3months like that. Was quite happy yesterday. Should end soon. Will update another day. My sister wants to do her hair before she goes to Japan!!

Oh ya, don't know what came over my father. His mood suddenly changed. I thought he didn't have me as his daughter or so he said on Monday. Ha..Aliens have taken over his body. Very suspicious. Alright, byebye =)

Concurrence

BLOODY HELL, I'M FREAKING PISSED.

I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM

I'M SHITTING FEELING TOTALLY ANGRY RIGHT NOW. STOP SHOUTING AND SCREAMING AT ME. DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SAY AND ACCUSE MAKES ME SLEEPLESS AND HAVE NIGHTMARES AND MY BLOODY MUCUS GLANDS PRODUCE WATER WITH UREA AND SODIUM CHLORIDE?


Its okay. I'm simply on my way to attaining 'enlightenment'.

Yes.


"Life entails suffering; suffering arises from attachment to desires; suffering stops when attachment does; to transcend life's pains, follow the Eightfold path."


What is happiness? What causes pain? Its all in our sensory neurons and mind.

There is no such thing as interminable happiness.



Therefore, we live to suffer.

Lizard attack!

Isn't that baby lizard cute!!!

Yes, thats my father. And he still asked if he looked handsome. Thats he's neck brace. HA..















Well, haven't updated for quite abit. Ohmygod. Some people are going places that I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go!!! Like Egypt!!!!!!!! JAPAN!!!! ARGH.

Anyway, I don't know. I'm still feeling quite depressed about my father. Really. I don't want to explain it all here. Just, he's totally contradicting what he says sometimes. He keeps accusing me. Its not like I'm msging that often anymore. AND, I'm paying my own bill now what. Like, what the hell. Shit. This time, I'm really not at fault. AT ALL.

I went out that day with my second sister. Ha, we had quite a fun time. Did some kiddy stuff like putting those one dollar coins in the machine and turning the thing to get those toy-in-a-plastic-ball out. Anyway, I was really lucky that day when we played the Nightmare Before Christmas one. Helped her get the Jack. Aiyo! They're all lego men! Ahhhhhh. And I got zero. On my first try!!!!!

I don't feel like typing anymore. Oh ya, i finally finished my clay figurine. Cool. Now it's just waiting to dry.

Shall end here. Bye

For This Is The Unreal.

Second hair...One year, nine months.

Saint? I'm not one.


Haven't updated for a long time. I'm quite pissed with some things actually. I mean, my father ALWAYS misunderstand me. And he keep talking to me in that voice. Mygod, really, I should have jumped out of the car. Anyway, Just finished my tuition homework. My crazy tuiton teacher gave me so much maths hw.

Also, my last and only living hamster is not living anymore. I went to feed her this morning when I found her. Ohmygod, there were flies around the body, but it wasn't cold or stiff. She should have died less than 8hrs. She's a daughter of Skippy, so when she died, naturally I'll feel bad. I miss Skippy. And I'll miss her. SECOND HAIR!!!

Anyway, i just realised someone looks so gross! AHHHHHH. I was so dumb.

Also, I rebonded my hair! I felt so bad, Jeslyn had to wait for me so long to get the hair thing done. But anyway, its straight now. NO MORE GRASSY HAIR!!!! And, Jes and I took neoprints. HAHAHA. Go out with her always damn fun.

Then, there was that day when I met up with YY. OHMYGOD, I managed to drag her into taking neoprints, and guess what. Just because of me, we ended up getting one pathetic picture in the whole print. We posed so many times okay! ARGH. Sorry YY!!!!

And, ya, what took YOU so long man. I really don't get it. I don't know. I'm not brainless I'm not brainless. What Tracy said really got to me. I think, I'm sure going to get depressed next year. Really. The past will come back again. I'm sure of it. Don't say I won't, because everytime I'm saying something that WILL happen, it does. Me and my smelly mouth. Alright. I've been working on clay, trying to make a figurine of this demon blowing a bone-flute. Think I posted a painting of it before.

I'm quite bothered about certain things right now. So, I think I'll not post anything about this.

Okay, whatever. This is getting in circles. I should go now. Will update again. Bye.



Dedicated

Frivolous yet melancholic joy
Take pleasure to contradict oneself
The barrel tries to act shy yet coy
Please return us some of your wealth.

Jeslyn and Mei Ker, this would be for you to someone =)

The Execution of the Mole

Ancient palace in Seoul.

Isn't that sundial damn cool!

Anyway, had tuition yesterday and met up with my eldest sister with my mother at Jurong Point. My father wanted me to cut my hair.

Since my sister had a package thing, she said she'd let me use one of it to treatment my hair. Sounds very chemical. Sankyu!

Anyway, my fringe looks like some toot person. It was standing up. Can you imagine how short it is. Oh! The guy straightened my hair! But its only a temp thing. So its like will go hay-ey soon after. Sister said after the treatment my hair will be like softer. I guess it is. I quite like straight hair. If got money, sure go rebond! Or however you spell it. Ya, then the cow won't attack my head. Since my family always say my hair damn dry and grassy. tsk.

Anyway, I'm quite irritated about what they say. My father and mother always say I looked awful with the old fringe. HEY! I pin up the fringe what. Say I look sleepy. How can I look sleepy without the fringe blocking my eyes. Think I got the mushroom cut then they happy ah. Okay, whatever.

Need to go do my tuition homework soon. Don't dare to bathe, later my hair not straight anymore! Also, Jes told me some damn irritating stuff. I really think its time to execute our scolding-people-till-they-faint kungfu all over again. Abit out of practice actually. Haha.

Alright then, shall end here. Bye:)


His Forethought

Stumbling and falling
Praying while crawling
Beleaguered next besieged
Careworn beside oppressed.

:)

Here are some pictures taken when I was in Korea.

Leaving Dragon Valley Hotel

Piled up rocks at Seorak's temple.

The tree outside "Large Intestine's Tendon".








Somebody is really A-S :)




Sorry, your attention is not seeked.

Fever!

This is the second needle inserted..

Wow, Marilyn Manson.

Oh, I want to buy the Greatest hits or don't know what of Limp Bizkit!!! Ahhhhh.

Anyway, I got hospitalised on Monday morning. HUH! ME!? Don't know. Queued up for this ride at the amusement park in Korea in the cold for 2 hours. Didn't wear enough clothes.

I got high fever when I came back. Woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. Was trying to msg some ppl to tell them I couldn't meet them the next day because I was sick when I blacked out on the toilet bowl.

Of all places, why ON the toilet bowl..

Anyway, I was half conscious of what was happening to me. The sink was just beside the toilet bowl and my head hit against the sink. Must be hit quite hard because I woke up a little. I think I was having a fit. My leg muscles were vibrating like anything. Spasms. I got a shock and quickly stood up. I was asking myself what was happening to me.

Decided to wash my face to cool down because I was feeling very hot. Face like some radiator.. Anyway, the last thing I remember was when I washed my face I looked up in the mirror then everything went blank.

"Er!! Can you hear me!?(X10times)"

That's my father. He was hugging my head I couldn't breathe. Was panting like crazy. I struggled to wake up and they kept asking me all sorts of questions. I kept saying water but they couldn't hear me..I was very dehydrated I think. Anyway, I was too weak to stand up and all that. Found out I was leaning against the bathroom door. I had fallen on the floor. My parents woke up cause they heard me falling. Which must have been quite loud, I think.

They sent me to the hospital and the doctors admitted me into the A&E's Observation room. I only got my water from taking the medicine after like don't know how many hours. You know how horrible it is...you're too weak to guesture for water and they can't hear when you're trying to say WATER.

Ya, the best thing was after that they put me on a drip. And the nurse didn't change the pack and my blood flow up the tube so they had to insert another needle into my other hand for the new packet..all the junior nurses were surrounding me to look at the senior nurse insert the needle into me. Somehow, I felt like abit of a guinea pig..

Anyway, I felt real bad that I couldn't manage to send the msg to YY before I fainted. I was trying to msg her before fainting la. And she waited like don't know how long. Was supposed to meet her to pass her back her table tennis racket and she pass me my chinese dictionary..HAHA.

Well, her mother and her came to visit me. I felt so bad!!! Sorry YY!!!! Ahhh. Also, while waiting for my mother to settle the stuff, I got sick again. She kept walking so fast back to the car, making me carry all the heavy things. YA! Guess what, when I went home my temp was 38.8 degree celsius...she was rushing back to work. Now I'm feeling better, but evertime I sleep the fever will come back. And my cough is sort of terrible. Made me vomit a few times.

Don't dare to tell my parents. Well, I have to go back to the hospital and do some tests. To determine why I fainted and all that. And they want to conduct some cardiac tests on me.

Actually the experience was quite cool. Lucky it wasn't serious. They were sticking needles in me. To get blood samples. WOW!! And they put it in the BIOHAZARD bag la. Felt like grabbing one home. Feel quite bad for the hospital costs..wanted to keep the green name tag. And, I'm lucky my father heard me fall, if not my fainting episode will go unnoticed and might have died or something. Not that it'd be that bad.

Will minus tuition money, school money, life-costs..etc. Thats A LOT

I still feel weak and feel giddy sometimes now. But whatever. Think I should go soon. Can feel my father coming home. Bye:D

Goodbye to those Asses.

An ink drawing on my locker.

During a Bio tutorial.
What are those lines? Scars.

Pigeon roadkill. Blood was bright red it looked fake. And I could see the eyeball dangling from its optic nerves from the eye sockets. Cool.






























Haven't updated for a very long time. My father disconnected my wireless. So..guess you know that I've been sort of suffering from withdrawal symptoms. Computers!!!

Going Korea tonight. Hopefully I'll see Tracy there. It'll be like winter there. Think my lips will be cracking like anything. Sister said we won't be sleeping for certain days. HA. Super panda already. This should be a short post. I'll keep it this way. Going to be really busy soon. Bye :)



Ceaseless

Spirals we turn
Each step we make
Memories burn
My soul they take.

With Cloven Hoofprints scorched on boards, and stench of sulfur choking the air.

That's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me that's not me!

Nice.


























I typed this stupid entry the other day but unfortunately it couldn't be posted. My house phone is being crazy. Don't know what the hell happened. I was saying that I heard my sister playing on her laptop this jap band music. WOW! I couldn't resist but go out and ask her who was it. Turned out to be this band called D'espairs Ray. Nice.

Anyway, I'm really quite depressed these few days. I don't know how to act. I'm afraid. And I also found out certain stuff. I cause so many people so much misery. Waste their money and time on me. And about YY. Shit. I really hate myself. That day Costa was late and he didn't even say sorry. Well, he made it out like we were the ones at fault. And also, I found out that one CANNOT post our personal stuff online. Because it gets misinterpreted. And the results are always disastrous.

This blog wasn't meant to be read by certain people. Now i feel so freaking restricted. Think I should start on a new blog website. Keep them out of my other personal life. I hate this. Everything.


"Our life is short, and our days run
As fast away as does the sun;
And, as a vapour or a drop of rain
Once lost, can ne'er be found again."

Robert Herrick.