GIVE ME A DAMN NUMBER!

Tell you all something. 

But don't spread this around because I think I know who are the few people whom actually reads my blog okay!!!!!

So if someone else close to me whom I don't want to share this with, asks me about what I'm going to complain about next,

 I KNOW IT'S YOU WHO TOLD HIM/HER.

Anyway...

During the start of April, Sid asked if I wanted to apply for a BTO (Build-to-Order) flat that's coming out in Clementi in April.

Who knew the process was so difficult and that so many people would apply for it!

We're not thinking about anything serious, he didn't proposed, and we were just thinking of applying, for fun.

Because I think Clementi is a good location for a flat, and also, it's close to both of our parents' home.

I also think that it is very good timing for me, because by the time it's built, it'll be about 2015-2016, which is when I want to MOVE OUT.

Honestly, I know about all the conveniences you have when you live with your parents, living on your own in your own house is costly and takes a lot of effort, but I sometimes really hate living with my family.

All the nasty habits and stuff.

I'm not saying I don't have bad habits, but I don't want to continue seeing my dad's p3n!$ when I'm 28 or whatever okay. (He pees with the door open and when he bathes, he don't close the door!!!!!!!)

And more stuff like that...

Also, I hate to be lovey-dovey or mushy and whatnot, but I think Sidney is a good person for me and is very compatible with me :)

OKAY BACK TO THE STORY.

So that day when the HDB website opened for application, we tried to go in an apply. 

Surprise, surprise, the website was jammed like hell and took forever to load each page because a lot of other people were trying to log in to the damn website as well.

Anyway, we managed to apply and last Friday we got the result.

It was also the day that Sid and I watch the movie Battleship in JCube's IMAX theatre and I will continue to complain about that experience after this.

Sid's good friend also applied for the Clementi flat, but he applied for the 5-room one, whereas Sid and I applied for the 4-room flat.

Sid's friend told us about the release of results and he got a ballot number of about 500+. There are only 200+ 5-room flats.

And guess what number Sid and I got???

NONE.

The freaking idiots made us pay $10 (I think) and just told us we were unsuccessful!

WA LAO! I pay you some money, I rather get a number like 1084 than none okay!

And we had 4 chances, because we are first-time applicants and also, the new flats would be in close proximity to our parents.

Sid's friend only had 2 chances (first-time applicants).

And you know what?

There were only 317 4-room flats available, but over 1300+++ people applied for it.

Clementi was the area which was most popular.

I was totally turned off and upset loh!

NO NUMBER!

EEYER!!!!!!!

So angry.

Then Sid was checking his FB when he saw his friend announced on his FB status that he's going to be a new resident in Clementi.

SHUT UP!

So irritating.

That guy got number 10 you know!

WE HAD NO NUMBER!!!!!

NONE!!!!!!!

ARGH.

You might say, aiya, 1000 is same as unsuccessful what...

But did you know, I kept thinking about the worst-case scenario, and imagining our ballot number for a while, like 687, or 879, or 1317, and this totally blindsided me that I got no number at all.

So bad!

Sid's friend got 500++ number lo! And that's far from the number of available flats what!

So turn off!!!!!

This HDB earned like damn a lot of people's money from applying and not getting a number at all!!!!

Can you hear my screams right now?

Anyway, the IMAX experience at JCube was quite disappointing.

Not because of the movie, it was okay, but the IMAX theatre is damn pathetic, I think it only has about 7-8 rows....

Smaller than normal theatre size right?!

And I think we sat 1 row too near to the front, my neck hurt from looking at the huge screen...

Also, I find that because the screen was so huge, it's hard for people to get a sense of the action when they're focussed on the wrong part of the screen. 

Especially when the movie involves a lot of action and fast-moving scenes, so the focal point will change very often.

I also don't know if more than half the population of Singaporeans are deaf or what, but the damn IMAX speakers were too bloody loud!

I was damn busying trying to spot the action on the huge screen, and exclaiming and trying to cover my ears when the loud scenes suddenly came out and started blasting my ear drums....!

Very pain you know!

And the worst thing was that, I was trying to see if other people in the theatre found it loud, but no one was covering their ears!

Sid as usual, being very uncle, suggested we stuff tissue paper into our ears to deafen the sounds and it worked. 

HAHA.

We're such losers right.

All in all, I really find that the IMAX experience sucked at JCube...

I've not tried other IMAX theatres before, but IMAX tickets costs 2 times the normal ticket price, and I don't find the experience twice the amount of enjoyment of when you go to a normal theatre and watch a movie, so it's really not worth it, when I think about it...

Sid said I have very low tolerance for smells, sounds and everything.

He told me he found it very loud but didn't have the same outraged reaction like I did.

HAHAHA!!!!!!!

Honestly, I enjoy doing such things. 

Like make my displeasure very obvious when someone near me is very smelly, or when sounds are super loud for no reason, and partly it's also to embarrass my friends when they're with me, HA!!!

So funny.

The Truth Is ALWAYS Out There.

You realise you're getting older and out-of-tune with the younger generation when you start to NOT get their new acronyms like FTW or IKR or IDK or YOLO...

Honestly, I felt very confused and embarrassed that I didn't get what the hell does these acronyms mean when my friends on FB started posting it in their statuses or comments.

Like what the hell, how did these acronyms start and how the hell do other people know about it?

I'll admit that I googled the words...

"What does YOLO mean"

So stupid right...

By the way, FTW means "for the win", but what the hell does "for the win" mean anyway!? It doesn't even make sense. I think it's something like "this shit is damn good so it proves my point that this is THE SHIT", or something along those lines.

So dumb.

And I only heard of IKR and IDK and YOLO through using Tumblr...

Because a lot of kids are using Tumblr and they think it's damn cool to use such terms.

IKR = I know right

IDK = I don't know

YOLO = You live only once, OR You obviously lack originality.

HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE COME UP WITH SUCH STUPID ACRONYMS?!

I guess IDK or IKR is still acceptable, but YOLO!?

How would people decipher it?!

Who came up with this kind of shit anyway!?

My god.

By the way, tell you all something...

Sid's mom is a bit of a religious person (she's Catholic and so is he...) and she frequently goes to the Church with Sid's sister's family.

Nowadays, Sid's niece keeps asking his mom why doesn't Aunty Wen Er go Church? In an innocent kind of way...

And about 2 weeks ago, his mom was telling me how cute the niece was by asking that...

Although I got a bit of the feeling like she wants me to go Church as well (WTH).

By the way, WTH means what the hell. Hahaha.

Anyway, Sid came to my defense, because what can a girlfriend do right? 

Of course you can't argue back to your bf's mom that she's Agnostic and don't believe in all that crap about going to Church and etc, and unless there's really a God and he suddenly appears somewhere and threatens to smite you with his wand or something, I'd go to Church....

And seriously, I really don't get how bad a person can be if they don't believe in a religion, or subscribe to your religion, or don't believe in a God because he refuses to appear once and for all to document his existence to us!

A decent human being should not be labelled "decent" in believing in an entity.

I've not done anything bad in my life, well except for sometimes deliberately killing pests, stomping on ants and stuff like that...

Maybe I made someone else's life a misery, but who hasn't, right? 

Unless you're a hermit la.

Okay, going back to the story...

Sid told his mom, "MOM! How can you ask Wen Er to go to the Church? If I ask you to go to the temple, would you go a not?!"

I was laughing my maniacal laughter in my mind but posed a poker face (I'm thankful for my acting skills) and at that moment, my <3 for Mr Sidney Yee increased tremendously. HA!

Then she started sputtering some words about her going to a temple with her friend that day, etc etc.

Okay...

Going on, so last week, Sid and I had dinner with his mom, his sister and her family (husband and daughter)...

Suddenly, his niece asked again why Aunty Wen Er never go Church...

BECAUSE I BLOODY HELL DON'T WANT TO LA!

But you don't say that to a 2 years old girl.

So Sid's mom again told her granddaughter (Sid's niece/his sister's daughter),

"Because Aunty Wen Er hasn't found Jesus yet."

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That totally took me off my food.

It left me in such an awkward position right, that I really didn't know what to do.

Honestly, I felt very offended and insulted and worst of all, helpless.

Offended and insulted because, I don't want to find Jesus unless he appears and explains/teach us how he made life on Earth (IN DETAIL) and etc, thank you very much.

And are my own beliefs not even taken into account?

Just because I believe in Science and proven knowledge and the effort to seek the truth that is always out there?

So you might ask, why helpless?

Because his whole family there were kind of devout Catholics, and I really like them, regardless of their religion, and they are older than me, so I've got no right to say anything, because I'm only his girlfriend.

Also, I felt a bit victimised because I was the only non-Catholic there.

I wonder if his mom would have said a different thing if I had another religion.

What if I answer, "Because Natalie, Aunty Wen Er has already found Prophet Muhammad..."

LOL, that would have made his mom burst a vein in the neck.

Kidding k.

And the worst thing was, no one thought it was anything bad, or knew that I felt very uncomfortable when she said that, and no one stood up for me.

Sid told me he could see that I was uncomfortable and he's sorry about it...

I wished he'd tell her off again though.

I guess you might argue...

That is why Catholics/Christians/people with religions are told to try and marry/get together with another person with the same religion so no such conflict will happen, right?

Shut up.

Anyway, that day my eldest sister (who has now converted to a Catholic) told me if I do get married into a Catholic family in the future, the parents-in-laws will slowly psycho psycho you...when you give birth, they will slowly psycho psycho you, etc etc.

NO THANKS.

I'll keep to my own beliefs okay.

You respect mine and I'll respect yours.

And something she suddenly mentioned gave me a jolt. She said that when you get married to a Catholic guy, you'd have to attended classes for like a month, plus minus, before having a Church wedding, and they'll make you sign a paper to state that if you give birth to a child, you MUST bring the kid to Church or something like that.

To bring them up in a Catholic way.

WTF!?

That meant WHAT THE FISH, by the way.

What is this "Catholic" way?

Are Asian Catholics different from Eurasian Catholics?

I don't know if I've told you all before, and pardon me for repeating myself, but I really don't believe in putting a kid through Catholic classes/Sunday School and shit like that.

I know they teach you about goodness, what is good and bad, etc, morals and stuff, but please, throughout that journey, they also enforce young and IMPRESSIONABLE minds about the existence of a God.

Let me explain further into details, and please I'm saying this not to offend believers out there k? Just try and see things from a logical, practical point of view.

Young children, they don't know what is right and wrong, that is true. 

But they'll have this inherent trust in any authority, especially their parents and that few hours the parents put them with a known authority-figure like a teacher or pastor, and believe totally what they teach/preach them about.

So from a young age, if they're always told that Jesus exists, or a God exists, and you must have faith in Him, even if he choose not to appear, it is this faith that he'll reward you with his love.......

I really don't want to subscribe to this mode of upbringing.

I would like my child (if I ever have one), to be able to judge for themselves, and have the choice on whether to believe in a God in the future when they grow up.

Not tell them since young that THERE IS A GOD AND YOU'LL BE PUNISHED IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM.

The worst thing is if my child turns out to be like those super annoying Christians/Catholics/whatever we all hate.

They go about telling new people they meet about their God, why they suddenly had faith in Him, how their lives were changed, and YOU should attend their Church/Temple/Mosque to get this feeling and feel their God's love too.

I'm getting a headache just thinking about this.

And it is not like not having a religion in the family creates a bad environment for the child to grow up in, what kind of logic is that?

You could be a devout Catholic but also be a serial killer.

I would just like any child in this world to have the option of growing up knowing about the existence of religions, and having the choice to believe in what he or she believes in. 

Not told and CONDITIONED from a young age that God does exists.

Serious, it's conditioning.

For a lack of a better word, it is something like brain-washing.

I sincerely apologise to anyone who takes offense to my way of thinking, but I really stand by my logic.

In all sense, you could also argue that even if a person has been brought up in the Catholic way since young, they can choose not to believe in God in the future, or be disillusioned...

The thing is, like Little Albert and James B. Watson's experiment on Classical Conditioning, he used a loud horn to startle a baby everytime it reached for a white bunny. 

So much so that the baby associated anything white and furry, or bunny-like to be bad and scary after a while.

The baby grew up with this fear still and in the Psychological world, it was considered to be an unethical experiment.

Hold your horses, I'm not saying Sunday School and whatnot is unethical, I'm saying along the same sense, the kid would grow up associating ANYTHING good with the work of Jesus/God, and that non-believers are not good, anything learned during the Sunday School is considered to be true and conditioned in their young minds to be real.

I'm not very good with words, and I might have been offensive to your beliefs, but I really don't know how to put it across any better.

I guess I'm very lucky that Sidney is very supportive of my own beliefs and have said that some thoughts I had about religions are true...

I feel glad he's really understanding and mature in every sense.

Knowing his mom, I think she'll do the psycho psycho thing if we do ever get married (I'm not saying we will), and especially about our kid (if we ever have one, TOUCH WOOD).

Hmm.

The Contradictions of the English Language.

No offense but I find it quite weird when people "like" their Facebook status...

I get the "like" when others comment on your status and you like their comment, so you "like" their comment. But "liking" your own status is really strange, because obviously you like your status right? If not why you put it there in the first place...

Also, I hate it when I hear people, especially many Singaporeans today, pronounce the "L E" of a word as "E R".

For example,

the word "example" (HAHA)...

A lot of Singaporeans pronounce it as "examper"!!!!!!!!!

What the hell is wrong with their tongues!?!?!??!!

Can't you just bloody pronounce it properly!?

It's LE NOT ER.

In another example, the word, "people".

Omg, this semester I took a Voice Production and Studies module in NIE and there's this girl in my class who keeps doing this!

Peoper.

Peoper.

PEOPER.

Bloody hell, to me, it's so IN-YOUR-FACE when they pronounce it like that.

It has become such a habit you know? That many Singaporeans don't pronounce their "L"s and "R"s properly.

Damn annoying.

On another note, I pronounced a word I seldom use wrongly yesterday.

That word is "vineyard".

Would you pronounce it as VINE-YARD?

Or VIN-YARD???

Like PIN, not PINE?

Because Sidney corrected me that it's pronounced as VIN-YARD not VINE-YARD.

I'm pretty sure I've heard people on those stupid travel shows pronouncing it Sidney's way, which should be correct, but it's strange how the VINE in VINE-YARD is not pronounced like PINE or WINE or FINE...

But like FIN and WIN and PIN.


THEN DON'T SPELL IT AS VINEYARD AND CONFUSE PEOPLE RIGHT!?


Spell it as VINYARD la!

Ahh, the complexities and contradictions of the English Language.

Conforming to Conformity.

I find that I really dislike the habits of some people whom you go out with, who are CONSTANTLY on their freaking phone.

Hello!

I dated you to enjoy your company, not to enjoy watching you text your other friends/work colleagues/facebook/twit-shit/check website updates okay!?

All right, if it is a very important text, then that's fine. I won't mind you looking at your phone for that 5-10 minutes.

But I don't appreciate how I can set aside my phone for the few hours or so, to enjoy your company with you, yourself, and me, but you keep checking your phone.

If you stop and apologise that you're sorry, it's a work thing, or sorry, it's my bf/gf/prof, then it's fine, but no apology? Just a sudden silence with me trying to think of doing other things while you suddenly start texting/doing other stuff on your phone???

I find it very, very rude, you know.

I can tell you right now that I NEVER, EVER do this when I'm out with my friends/family.

I don't know why but a lot of people whom I go out with does this.

Why?

Isn't it enough that you sneak off for phone-breaks during school/office hours?

Can't you do it later when you go home?

What's so important on your phone/Facebook that you have to check right now?

Am I that boring?

Honestly, I don't think so. 

There is a reason why I'm choosing to come out with you, and that's because we "click", and we can maintain a conversation for long hours.

I hate it when people do that! So annoying!

It's seriously just plain rude!

And if you are reading this and you are suddenly enlightened to the fact that you've been doing this to your friends/co-worker/spouse for a while now, then please DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE IT.

Thanks.

Well, unless your friends/co-worker/spouse are also doing that, then it's fine, if you get what I mean...

Although I have a smart-phone (Iphone), I hardly use the 3G (because it's damn slow), so I seldom surf the net on my phone when I'm out of the house. I seldom play games on my phone when I'm on the bus/train too, unless the game is new and I'm currently addicted to it.

In fact, if my bag is light enough, I may carry a good ol' book, or my Blackberry Playbook to read the e-books which I've downloaded into. 

And I only read when I'm on the bus and train, ALONE.

This leaves me with another vein of thought.

Today, I was taking the train on Circle Line to Harbourfront to meet Yeti, and I didn't bring a book. My bag is too small and the current book I'm reading is too heavy...

So I was left with my eyes wandering around the train, people-watching, staring at the people sitting on the seats across mine...

I think I've told you how I don't like taking the train and I prefer taking the bus because I'm always forced to try hard to not stare too long at a spot when I've nothing to do...

Anyway, there were 2 guys sitting across me and my mind was just wandering and so were my eyes...

Being part of an Asian society where we're from Collectivistic cultures, I try not to look at people's faces, trying to be non-confrontational and not-weird, you know?

And I suddenly realise that after a while, I happened to be staring at the guy's crotch area.

I don't know!

It just happens, you know?

I'm not attracted to the dude, just happened to rest my open-eyes at the said area. But when I realised I've been staring at his crotch, I quickly look up to check if he noticed and had to find some other spot in the cabin to stare at.

Ah, social conventions are such a difficult thing to live with sometimes.

The "You don't bother me, and I won't bother you" kind of deal....

I Don't Get What The Fuss Is All About.

I went to watch The Hunger Games movie with Silvia and Dian a few weeks ago.

The movie was NOT touching at all, and there were people crying in the theatre....

So I thought what's all the fuss about this Hunger Games Trilogy in the blogosphere, Tumblr and FB, and  I decided to read the book.

It happened that Dian dl-ed the e-book so I asked if she could send it to me, which she kindly did.

Anyway, if I thought the Hunger Games (first book of the trilogy) was not very nice, it got progressively worse in the next 2 books.

First of all, the language is very simple. I mean, you can argue that what can I expect from a young adult book right?

HELLO!

Look at J. K. Rowling's Harry Potter series.

So detailed, rich in originality, and NO such over lovey-dovey I'LL-KILL-MYSELF-BECAUSE-OF-LOVE sentiments in her characters!

THIS IS WHAT YOUNG ADULTS SHOULD BE READING!

Not filth like Twilight, which has horribly easy language, turn-your-brains-to-mush-with-stupid-loopholes storylines, or like this Hunger Games.

Okay, rated that I think the Hunger Games is a bit better than Twilight on the whole, because at least the Hunger Games Trilogy has a proper plot and storyline, trying to depict what the rich are taking for granted, etc etc, but after the 2nd and 3rd book in the Hunger Games...

Omg, the female protagonist (Katniss Everdeens) keeps thinking of and trying to commit suicide (like a suicide bomber/assassin) because many people sacrificed their lives for her, or her sister died, or Peeta (her lover) got captured, or the stupid President leaves a rose in her room.

WTH!?

So stupid.

I don't want my niece or other kids to be reading such nonsense things, about suicides and stuff.

Why are kids interested in such things?

I've never been interested in such books.

After reading like Enid Blyton books, I progressed to Christopher Pike, then to my still-favourite authors today, Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child!

Not forgetting Harry Potter.

Ugh.

By the way, I hope I find a job soon!

Angry.

I hate it when people who are close to me ask me for help to draw stuff. 

As in, I don't mind to, but not always...

And I hate it when they give me vague instructions, or ask me to redo stuff again and again.

The reason why is I CANNOT do an art piece for more than a day. 

And I usually use pen and marker as a medium, so it's all hand-drawn, very hard to make adjustments unless I redo it all over again.

Especially when they ask you to do things for their own purpose, like to win a competition (and when they win, they don't give you the prize! WALAO!), or for their friend's use in a company.

Hello!

If your friend want you to design a logo, tell them you can't do it instead of asking your daughter to do it for you okay! 

And if it's for some company event, then pay someone to do it la!

I'm broke and I'm unemployed okay!

Call me selfish, but I prefer to do art which I'm inspired to do, and not take instructions from others, or have to keep redo-ing stuff.

It makes me very annoyed.

I'm happy to help you if it's easy and you give relatively detailed instructions.

UGH!!!!!!!!