Long Live PapaRoach!!!!!!!

Hm, I drew this in secondary four. Linkin Park fans should know what represents this drawing.

I'm sorry, I was so bloody pissed off yesterday, and finding out that my father NOT giving Cappy away to another girl when he actually set her free, really didn't help make it any better. But whatever.

After listening to many songs these few days, I just realised that Staind is really good, ha. And Red Hot Chilli Peppers(RHCP). What kind of name is that anyway...ah, my friend sent this song from My Chemical Romance to me, called Helena, HEY, isn't that the name of my niece. Next time play the song for her, wahaha. Must influence her into rock.
I think my eldest sister wouldn't like the idea.

I was changing my hamster's sawdust today and I found out that my last and only living hamster is balding, at her backside. As in, her butt is losing fur. HAHA, so cute la. Like some tuff of fur got pulled out by someone pulling at her butt. Whoops, even though I like to torture her, I'm not the one who did that! NOT ME NOT ME!!!

I woke up like damn early today la. When I slept at 2am yesterday. SHIT. I'm a person that needs a lot of sleep okay. My father came into my room and asked me to put that neck support thing around him, then I couldn't go back to sleep. I didn't know how he's back to being friendly with me anyway..hmm.

Ahh, I should be getting to start my revision soon after this. I love chem!


Through 60 Million Years of Evolution

Our death by numbers are never far too great
Killing a colony of us won't matter, for goodness sake.
I'm not cute and I'm not furry
But I make 500 babies when my mates scurry.
Well-known around the continents of the world
Always lingering near any cubicle's hole or bowl.
We have been featured in many movies
Like for example, the Man In Black series.
That Will Smith(Agent J) killed my aunt in Episode One
When he stepped upon her like she's some scum.
Or maybe in Joe's Apartment
Where we were living in all his compartments.
Damn that Shieldtox and Baygon,
Toxified Granduncle and now Grandaunt's forlorn.
We love the squeals when our wings spread and beat,
But with the pesticides out we're in deep shit.
We thrive in the most well-suited conditions:
100 of my sons in pipes
150 of the daughters in construction sites
200 nieces at your very own kitchen
250 nephews in the coops of chickens.
Please don't cut us out from your fun,
Leave some bread or candy and maybe a bun.
Because opposing against my species you can never win,
For you will still find us in your trash bins.
Night time comes and we come out to play
But when light switches on we all scuttle away.
I've got to leave as the Homo Sapien approaches,
Seemingly unaware of the many camouflaged, hiding roaches.


Hmm.

31773

Corollary of the Ramifications.

I'm so freaking angry. My father bought food home and somebody was talking on the phone. Interviewing me about shit stuff. Then he kept calling. Keep calling and calling. I was so busy. Couldn't he call my sister or something? And I was freaking not talking to a friend. He told my mother that what, he brought me up all these years for nothing. HEY!




AS I SAID, IT TAKES COMMITMENT AND GIVING IN IF YOU WANT TO BRING UP A CHILD AND IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOUR CHILD WILL BE GOOD BACK TO YOU WHAT RIGHT. AT LEAST I'M NOT SOME DRUG ADDICT IN THE STREET.

HUH, WHO WAS THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WANT ME TO GO TO JC TO STUDY, BECAUSE I GOT A 15 FOR L1R5 AND ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR EDUCATION IN A JC?????? aND WHAT ABOUT I'LL WASTE HIS MONEY IF I DO?

YA, SO WHAT IF HE'S HAVING SOME PROBLEM WITH HIS BACK. HE'S DOING WORSE PROBLEM TO IT BY EATING PEANUT BUTTER FROM THE BLOODY JAR AND THAT HE KEEPS EATING THOSE INSTANT PORRIDGE THINGS!?

THAT SHITTING DAY HE KEPT ACCUSING ME OF CUTTING MY BLOODY NAILS AND LEAVING IT ON THE GLASS TABLE. ITS NOT ME OKAY. EVERYTHING ME EVERYTHING ME.

WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER DAY HE KEPT SAYING THAT I'M THE ONE WHO ATE THE SHIT INSTANT NOODLES. HELLO!? I'M NOT THE ONE LA. I'M NOT EVEN HOME HALF OF THE DAY, I'M IN SCHOOL. WHY WOULD I COOK NOODLES IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY WHEN MY MOTHER WILL BE BACK HOME FOR DINNER HUH!?

SHIT lo, please la, he want to freaking complain and he's doing it on purpose, loudly so that I can hear it. But you know what!? I'm not feeling guilty, because I've done nothing wrong. And he was shouting at me to close my stupid room door. Hey, I'm all the way at the back there la. He's just beside my room door, its so freaking near him. I swear its only a step away to my room for him. HIS BACK PROBLEM CANNOT PUSH A STUPID DOOR OPEN ISIT!? I don't believe it.

And why should he open the door, for what!? Light? There's such thing as electricity okay. He said what, I'm taking things for granted, all of us. If I were, I wouldn't even care about all his shit complaints la.

He's the one that went to cancel my stupid IDD because he so called said its not useful for me. NO IDD!? No IDD might as well throw away my phone! And when my parents call, I wouldn't know they did because I wouldn't shitting know who freaking called right!? And after that they'd blame me for not picking up my phone. Please la, I'm in school, my phone's on vibration, I'm having lessons, and I have no IDD, you want me to call my over 100 contacts and asked who called me just now isit!?

I was so angry, because he kept saying over and over that I was talking on the phone and he was having his headache and he might die anytime from it. HEY<>

Dog, seventeen years and he didn't even know I would vomit when I ate it. SHIT. Anyway, I shouted at him, that it wasn't my friend. You can't blame me. I have little tolerance, and from all the things he had been bombarding me with his accusations, its only why I couldn't take it and shouted at him what. And he could accept Cookie and not Cappy.

He gave her away on the last day of exams. He didn't even tell me. I only had 5 days with her. He's always overseas anyway. At least let me have a day to enjoy with her right. He tried to bribe me with money la. Bloody hell, I'll never forget that. I'll never forget anything that people wrongly accuse me of. I'll never forget the past. I'll never forget the things which people say. And my hatred will stay.

I feel like stabbing something. And they think its my fault. I don't voice it out one la, I always have to keep it in, until it gets to a point when I cannot take it any longer because they're really pissing me off. I hope he faster go for his operation. And when my mother saw my report book for prelims last year she freaked out. Said what, I wouldn't score an A for my English, because I was from a neighbourhood school, because I'm not like my sisters, because I got 218 for my PSLE, because I have their stupid recessive genes. She and my father kept crapping all over me that week, the week before my Os, and they expected me to do well? I got a 14 for prelims, and 15 for Os la. I was so bloody affected okay. I called Yina to cool down, I told her to call my form teacher to get me out of the house.

You know what, I got an A for my English. Whos the educated one now.
Bloody hell, my father kept asking my mother to cancel the subscription for National Geographic because he said I didn't read it. Wasting his money. I do read okay. If I didn't I wouldn't know about all those shit things that others wouldn't. Dog, how can they expect me to do well when they don't let me read.

Anyway, she tore off my Hellsing poster and all that, threw it away because it was doing me bad. Thats the most stupid thing I've ever heard. Look, the only thing that kept me from doing any better is them. And they tell me to forgive them. Who were the ones who didn't stop her from abusing me when I was young? THEM. Who was the one who held the bloody hammer at my hand when I was four when that bloody uncle asked me to keep the grapes!?

SO don't tell me I'm any worse than you just because I cut myself. Don't tell me I'm any worse off than you with my violent and sadistic thoughts when you were the ones who acted it out on me. At least I express myself in other forms, in writing and drawing and on myself. I don't do it on upon others.

And so what if they did all that for me to grow up well. I don't think it is the right way. They're doing it wrong. For they're the ones who made me go into depressions and continued in the abuse. I was the one. I was the one who grew and overcame her. I am the one who can be relied on and stop her. And my music, the one thing that helped me when I was in the shit D.

Its not that I don't wish well for them, they're my family. I'm grateful for the things they have done, the right ones. But seriously, sometimes its not worth it. No, I didn't cry. Why would I, its not even saddening. Don't say sorry when you've already done it. I might say I forgive you, but inside I'll remember you for what you've done forever.

My friend told me she saw Shawn and Claryce walking just out of the school, kissing that day. Who's the loose women now, Darius?

Time for me to go break more pencils.

We all go through the same things as you do.

Hm, the drawing is inverted, of a Gargoyle I drew of a album cover of one of L'Arc~en~Ciel's in Secondary Two.
The second is a picture of one of my favourite cartoons! Yay.











I went to see my sister on Wednesday night. It was alright, except when I found out that my sister got upgraded to VIP Suite of Gleneagles la...The moment we stepped out of the lift is like, WOA, big word, VIP SUITES, right there. Anyway, we were at the reception area and I was staring at all the medals the hospital had for the 10th wing and I saw this guy wearing suit and tie...carrying a tray around. I mean like, is this a hotel!? Dog, they served stuff with cool attire la. Then I saw my sister just being wheeled into the room, we had to leave..

After that we met my sister's husband at the foodcourt. His parents and cousin was there. Alright, then we went up. My sister looked quite pale and erm, there were manyyyyyyyyyy people there. Anyway, then the baby was brought in. Helena was sleeping like a mad pig. Alright, it got to the part of carrying her. My sister's husband's mother kept encouraging to carry her loh. I didn't want to carry, because I wanted others to carry first and maybe I could see how they do it what. Please la, I'm not dumb lo.

Then when I was about to carry my father kept saying don't let her carry. The way he said it, really freaking pissed me off. Anyway, I left the ward, squatted in the middle of the corridor and starting msging. I mean come on la, I know that they are fragile at the neck and almost everywhere, its not like even if I hate babies or children that much I'll drop her what. Rather, I'd hold on to her for dear life right. They'll kill me la. Aiya, my father asked me to go back in and kept asking me not to be angry. Ya ya, I know I know. I'm just bloody pissed.

I just went to my sister's house. I saw Kimmy. UAH! I think she's at least 6 years old la. I had her since Primary Five and she's the bestest cat anyone can have. I protect her from other cats, they like to snatch her food lo. She's a stray though. But there are kind neighbours who feed her. Anyway, I was chasing this male cat la. He was trying to eat the half-eaten fish Kimmy was eating, and another female cat. Kimmy follows me around and likes to play catch with a bush. HAHA. Eh, I like her. Anyway, I went in after a while.

My sister was erm...feeding the baby in her room. There were a few times when Helena was crying like anything. I had this very strong urge to cover her mouth leh. Really lo. And I can't believe I looked calm on the outside. I think it was from the training of the shocks I received from using Ellie to talk to Mr S and finding out his lies. Hmm.

I saw her umbilical cord, that is tied up, which will rot or something and become her bellybutton. Its black la, how gross is that. I felt like plucking it. Oh ya, my sister's husband didn't film the process of giving birth. SHIT. I mean like, I wanted to see the bloody process lo. And all I saw was like one picture with some blood underneath Helena's head. I heard that the placenta came out with the baby. Cool man. Wish can collect or something. Put it in a jar. I was more interested in it than the baby, seriously. And I was more afraid about my sister la, you know, I don't really er..like children right.

STOP SAYING THAT I WAS A CHILD ONCE.

Because I dislike people younger than me, not counted in my year of birth la. But whatever, I'll try to accommodate new members in my family tree. How can I not right.

And they kept saying that I'm scared of what, holding the baby or whatever. Please, I'm not. It just feels unreal that she's the thing that came out of her V is actually the foetus that was once inside her womb, when I could feel her kicking. And, I'm not afraid of blood. My sister was in pain just now. It must have felt damn pain. My mother said I kept crying last time. I must have been freaking irritating. My sister should have just smothered me to death with a pillow la. But, they didn't. I'm sure it was tempting, though.

So, since so much commitment goes into offsprings, I'm too selfish to give in to one. And the pain of going through all that. And the money. And the worrying of genetic disorders. And the stitching up of the V, or stomach. Or the stretchmarks. Really, mothers are such givers la.

I should propose that surnames of our offspring should be from our mothers. Seriously, they deserve it what. Or rather, maybe they'd rather unconditional love or filial piety. People who have read the Da Vinci's Code must understand. Priory of Sion! I mean, men can er, contribute their XY chromosomes and money and love for the growth of their children, but hey! Women sacrificed much more than that. What about the centuries of mistreatment women has gone through. Like the stupid three inch golden lilies Chinese women had to have last time huh! Eh, Mrs Tan from my secondary four form teacher should be proud of me la.

My phone is driving me insane. Really can make me cry la. Stupid keypad got something wrong. And it has no camera, or IDD. SO SHIT. Asking my parents is like you'll have to wait forever. Freaking annoying. I feel like asking my mother to use my bank account money la, since they're like so unwilling to use their money to get me one. I'm feeling so pissed off with so many things.

And my grandmother kept vomitting on the plane to China. Dog, of all places want to go China. I called her that day and only reached my aunt. Seems like she was there to check on the maid. I hope she's alright.

I've been wanting so many things for so long, but I don't want to say out, except about the phone thing and certain other stuff because it's really getting on my nerves.

-pants
-shirts
-HANDPHONE
-WITH A NEW PLAN, WITH IDD!!!!??? and don't know how many free thousand sms..add in that bloody camera.
-Mp3 player( one that can store all my songs. The one my father bought is like, not working properly la)
-Cds...(Chronicles of Life and Death!-Good Charlotte..etc)
-watching the movies that are interesting
-playing badminton
-less homework(er..wishful thinking)
-Promos never ever comes(Self-denial)
-Mrs Tan(boobies) rolling down the ramp and die
-Shawn and Claryce kissing outside of school and contracting incurable Venereal Disease
somehow.
-Mr Tay saying Hi to me again??
-Someone called _e_ not doing well, because she used us?
-Kwan Hong to stop with his scarey smses(he just added me on msn la, when I found out, I nearly died.)

The list goes on. Its getting from bad to worse.

Yeti, Yati, Yasi
GAD/SU/YKQ/ES.
Acronyms.

YY!!! WKY, MM, S:)

I know you're about to puke.

We're not ready, at all.

Thats some drawing I drew in Secondary One, of this character from KOF(King of Fighters)
The second is Cloud from FF.







17 years and I'm an Aunt.

Shit.

Happy Birthday, Helena.


Welcome to our world.

Whats with graphic art man.

Okay, today I'll be showing you all pics from FFVII. Heh, damn nice la, I'm dying. The last small pic is of Vincent. My heart is pumping abit fast ah...Sorry. Haha, the first one is Cloud, main character of the story. Vincent's damn cool la. He and his red cloak kung fu(...)







My sister showed me Final Fantasy VII she downloaded on Sunday. WOA, its damn nice. I love the graphics and art. The songs were quite nice too, except that there were a few techno songs..er..haha. WA! I like Vincent Valentine!!!! His red cloak and, he kind of reminds me of a vampire. Cool. Cloud's alright. And I like his friend who died. AHHHHH...Anime lovers should go download it or something.

Anyway, today was a relatively 'short' day. Had PE in the morning. We had rock climbing la. It was damn fun. But quite tiring. Luckily there were no spiders this time. I went up twice, always nearly got stuck near the top but yes, with the help of my classmates, especially the FBT gang and my two buds, Ain and YY, I made it! And there were moments where it got really funny la. Wa lao..That Jerold(HOT) got pulled up by Wilson, HAHAHA!!! His erm..below must have been damn painful la. I'm a girl and er...I nearly got pulled up when I was belaying someone, luckily got the other helper behind me, pulling my harness.

Yea, and that Mr Kwok(hot pants..), he's quite okay. I would have thought that he's quite fierce and all that, but he's actually quite nice and humorous la, wahhah. My track pants was like freaking baggy and long, had to fold up loh, and inside was hot. Basically, had fun today.

After school we rushed down to Lot1 and erm...you know you know. Won't tell you the details. But sorry YY, we made you wait alone and for so long. Really very sorry. Today I had a taste of Ain and YY. I must say that they tasted quite nice. HAH. I mean like, I bit them la.
There was a time when YY's shirt got my lip mark. Haha. Nice...

Er...got to end early today. Will update another time. Bye :D

Btw, was pissed with the way our class did with Royston's birthday. Like, Dog, what did he ever do to help with the class man. Just, go to their Hell la. Anyway, you know what!? Tomorrow's YY's birthday...so...

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY YY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to Ker Mei, sorry if I couldn't celebrate your birthday in time. Just Wishing you a HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAY too! Hah.

Birthdays...dots...

As He Walked Along The Netherworld's Ruins.

That's Billy Martin, bassist of Good Charlotte. AHHHH! My favourite.

An ugly sketch of Charlene's back view, sitting on the lab chair. Ain was pissed with GW for picking on her. Guess this is dedicated to you, Ernie Wong :)
I was visualising her throwing him rude hand guestures. You can't blame a bored student right..






I can't get to sleep, no, not yet. I just woke up like 4 hours ago, around 2.10am. I'm a pig la. After watching Survivor(Maya) which was direct off satellite this afternoon, I just lay on my bed, planning to wake up for dinner. My mother came in at 10pm, asking why I'm not eating dinner yet. Er hello!? I was knocked out la. I have been sleeping very little these few days. Damn. Anyway, I just finished my chinese WS and chem mock paper. I hate the word mock! Sounds gross.

Anyway, today was a really fun day actually. YY, Ain and I were like mad people la. It alllllllll started when we're supposed to vote which activity we were going for after our Promos, and that YY kept using her hp to call someone. Hmm..who might that be!!??? HAHA. Aiya, then I wanted to borrow her phone to take pictures and Ain struggled with her, trying to hold her while I pry it from her fingers. I got the hp then I started taking candid pics. HA! Damn funny la. But...due to CERTAIN pressing of 'delete' buttons, there were no more pics. WA, YY took one of me with my mouth open like some cow, damn ugly, I HAD to destroy the evidence.

But right, at first she didn't want to delete la, I had to chase her around. It felt damn exciting. YY, I told you I like playing catching.. Next time we play k? Then I'll be the catcher!! OH! You know what, YY suggested after the run that we could go to the basketball court after eating to play catching...(Sounds really childish la, but whatever, its fun lo!) We found out that we didn't have enough time la.

Its damn lucky you know why!? Because after we went for Bio tutorial, I saw that Shawn and Melvin playing at the court la. Wa shit, I can't believe those shit people writing the testimonials for Shawn saying that he's a pro at basketball. WA! Then I what!? He kept missing the hoop. Isn't that like an airball. Or rather, airballs. Dog, so he's an airhead la. The best thing was that Shawn wrote in his blog that day about Claryce, he didn't say the name out, but its obviously her la. Thats like so freaking dumb because I guess he thought I might be reading his shit blog and he tried not to make it obvious its her because of certain things he said before. I shouted something to him again la. Heh. Okay, I'm relating in code. Nevermind..

Oh no...Then we went to the hall above the study area. Dog, Ain and I did some really embarressing things la.
I was howling and barking like a crazy dog, because I thought below in the Hall, there wasn't anyone. I thought wrong la, when Ain told me she saw some guy below!!! I stretched my neck over, then I got quite irritating.
"Eh you! Boy over there!"
I said it in some manly voice la, HAHA. Ain and I quickly ran. Wa lao, turned out the guy got angry or something.

We moved to the other side to get a clearer view of the guy's face. Then that YY went to jump and try to touch the jutted out ceiling la. I can tell you, she's a Yeti man. Erm as in, abominable snowman? Or bigfoot?? Or sasquatch??? She's damn tall and can reach almost all signs. Be it toilet sign, or EXIT or pipes!!! And she can do it without jumping sometimes...when I have to jump, because I'm so freaking short. And her hands! WOA, is like one joint longer than mine la. Anyway, she was jumping, and her hair was like a rocket! Wa lao, I see already kept laughing. HAHAHAAHAHHAH!!

By the way, yesterday, which is Friday, was a sleeping-during-lectures day for YY. WA! NON-STOP! This whole week la. During Bio lecture, maths lecture. You know, she slept until we had to poke at her ribs to make her wake up la. Tapping on the hands or shoulders weren't good enough. Haha. And I used my highlighters to colour her nails...and wrote on her lecture book. Ha, see how deep she sleeps during lectures!!??

AND, this morning I laughed till I nearly cry la. DOG, guess what happened man.
During biology lecture, as usual, many were sleeping. But a particular classmate of mine, called Jerold(HOT) was sleeping like a mad pig. He's damn tall la, wa lao! So his neck like, maybe couldn't support enough, and his head was leaning back. You know, those irritating people sleeping in trains or buses that do those sleeping-head-banging stunts. I think its in the subconscious minds of those people to tell them to lift their head up again when it droops. Anyway, his was backwards la!!! And his body was so long till his head was dropping and coming up so violently!!!!!!!!!!

It got so sudden when his head dropped violently behind(I saw this out of the corner of my eye..) and his head hit the lecture table behind that a SO6 guy was using. Damn loud la! I think he got a shock and he woke up. Wa lao, he turned to say sorry and the SO6 guy said nevermind! Wa lao, the moment it registered in my mind, I bursted out laughing man. Couldn't stop and I told Ain!! She and I are always observing people sleeping. DAMMNNNNNNN Funny! Aiya, too bad she was copying the bio thing for YY. I mean, can you imagine someone can sleep so far back until his head knocked the table behind his row!!!??? Thats like..oh.my.Dog.

I'm like praying he'd do it again.

Anyway, I'm quite irritated by some people. I can't believe they said I'm Satanic or something because I'm interested in gothic or morbid stuff or I freaking paint two of my nails black. HEY! What Satanic??? Marilyn Manson's Satanic!

Satanic :
(1) relating to Satan or the worship of Satan
(2) extremely evil or cruel

I don't worship Satan. Lets just say I'm interested k. And if I do worship him, it means I believe that he exists. And if I believe he exists, that means I believe that God exists! Or whatever Trinity. And I don't believe he exists okay. So don't tell me I'm Satanic. Dog, thats like soooo..idiotic of them. Go bang wall or something la.

So, you get the point?

Erm, sorry to religious people reading. I'm just targetting those idiots who said I'm Satanic or whatever shit.

By the way, my father just came back today. Hospital postponed his operation. Because there were not enough ICU beds to accomodate him. And it was because of some serious accident along AYE or something. EH, I thought first come first serve...And the doctor said he might just wake up one day and not be able to walk la. What if its within this week??? I mean, the doctor should know that it'll be quite major and all that. But whatever, they're sure to deal with the more 'seriously-injured' externally first I guess. And my sister's going to give birth on the 19th or something. Oh shit, isn't it tomorrow!?

!!!! I'm not prepared to have the term 'AUNTIE' on me...and reading my sister's blog, I just found out that Britney Spears gave birth already. I mean like, HUH!? Since when did she get pregnant!? I'm damn outdated la. K whatever, got to go dream about Jerold's head-banging. Ha!

Hmm..good morning to you all.

For They're The Damned.

Tetsuya from Casshern. Its quite a sad movie. Cool mask..

Thats Jack Skelligton from The Nightmare Before Christmas. I plucked out his head with Jeslyn, cos he kept losing his limbs...His head is now hung on my locker at school.




Haven't updated in a few days. I'm quite confused. I was damn depressed today. Got my Chem CA marks...I got a 36.1% la...Well, the only 'happy' note is that I've improved by 5%..The upset-causing thing is that I'm in the lower quartile in my class and I got the lowest for chem. SHIT. Its like an O!!!!!! Anyway, its better than an F, except that its still a FAIL. Seriously, I'm quite a failure. Well, I'll try my very best. I really don't want to fail...again :(

Ms Soo said my GP file is meticulously labelled and shes happy that I did some independent learning with the GP bulletins, HAHA!!! Guess what, I went to highlight la, since its on the first section of the file, I firgured that she'd be flipping through it. Must impress her by 'showing' that I have been reading up on my own right..hehe..The truth is, I only read parts which interested me, the rest of the highlighting is just crap...

Anyway, to get to the point, Des kind of irritated us with her 'how-thick-her-GP-file-is' and 'what-did-you-do-to-impress-Ms Soo' attitude. I mean, she only came to us during GP for discussion. Other than that, she's like, not even talking to us one la...I mean, we were supposed to be discussing about Xenotransplant and all that and she's constantly tapping on my shoulder and complaining to me la. Damn annoying.

What she said to YY really pissed me off. Like YY said something to Des and she said what,"Aiya, also not you, of course you not scared la." Or something like that. I mean, please la, who doesn't want to get a good grade for GP file right. It just sounded freaking dismissive! And she's like using us. Just because Ms Soo said my GP file's quite okay, then she kept pestering me la. Still want to take my notes and WS all that and put in her file to fake like she did it. Like, what the hell...
And its like, she's such a mugger! I mean, she's kind of overdoing it la. Really man, after lectures, I always see her sitting at a corner to mug and not eat. When the bell rings, she just go find the others la.

Dog, thats like soooo, USER!!!

Anyway, what I really want to say today is about my father. He's in the hospital now la. He went like yesterday, after sending me to school. He really didn't have to, with his back and all that. I mean, my mother could have done it but my father, with his back problems, he just sent me to school la. And my mother and sister's at the hospital now. Visiting him. My mother asked me whether I have any test/s tomorrow. If not, my father's operation is in the morning, lasting for 3 hours. So maybe we could go see him.

I want to go, but I have lectures and tutorials. I don't want to miss anything. I mean, my promos are around the corner and I'm doing quite badly la. But I want to see him too. I mean, you never know what might happen right. I'd feel really bad if I didn't go. I'm worried for my father and I think for his character, he'd need our support I guess. Even if he didn't say it out...

I'm feeling so down la. During chem. Today's maths lesson was like a chionging session. The tutorial was like so freaking tedious and all that. And the Alex and Jerold kept talking about their doing on different JCs chem papers. Dog, thats like so stressful. I mean, how do they do it!? I spent my time doing chem revision tutorial and maths tutorial till 2am yesterday la. And Ms Chew was like, I don't know. The way she said things to me was like, she's worried and aiya, was very disappointed after that. Luckily I was sitting with YY during chem tutorial today. She really cheered me up la.

Thanks :)

I miss the days during secondary school. Eventhough I totally hate the place. It was fun quarrelling with teachers for marks and cheating and ganging up against sub-teachers and cursing that Steven Koh(bloody maths teacher) with my friends...Those days weren't as stressful as today. Everything having to be done and teachers forcing answers out of you and getting called twice a day to write your tutorial answers on the board and rushing Polymerisation tutorial during GP lesson. You know, all that shit.

Haha, yes, I miss Jeslyn, who would move her chair beside me during SS lesson and talk throughout about P-ing moles(heheh) and stealing Yina's shoe and passing it around the class without her knowng..And Mei Ker, talking about her problems, removing her strands of hair that dropped on my table, quarrelling with Ms Izzah and Mrs Lim for marks during Comb. Humans..And Tracy, talking about interesting stories we have read.

Or turning around and seeing that Matthew sleeping with his shirt exposing his belly fats...Using a pen to poke the fats..HAHAH!! Talking to Yina during Bio about certain people, ha. And what about trying to hit that Mr Lee with my paper from the back, quarrelling with that Darius. Making fun of Shahrin, laughing at the spit that Mr Hang spat out when he laughed...and his spit fell on Mei Ker's glasses la. HAHAHHAHAHHA!!!!! Thinking about it, I kinda miss those days. Especially singing Chui songs with Jeslyn! Haha, imitating that Mr Lim Pun Tok's duck voice..

Anyway, I'm piled up with homework. Gtg do now, but first, need to take my dinner. Will update again another day. Byebye.

Shit that Shawn. Saw him walking to his locker with that Melvin looking smug from his GP exam today. Bloody hell, hope he do badly. And thats mighty mean of me.

But, who cares?

And we all bleed the way you do.

Isn't he cool??? Yes, he's the comic art of Wolverine. Bought it last year. Damn nice la, the art.


Woa, today was a fun but shitty day. We had a kinda great PE lesson la. We played Ultimate Frisby first, then Captain's ball and lastly, Touch Rugby.
Freaking fun la, haha. Anyway, we were group with the FBT gang(because they're all wearing FBT shorts..), Ain, YY and I, Costa, Royston and Jerold.

What really pissed me off was what Royston had said. He said he really chose the wrong group to be in. Please la, I mean, we had the not-so-enthu FBT gang ma. They're more decent and erm..'gu-niang' right..AND, I did try ma..We all did. Its just that the other team is like, so super competitive la. SHIT. Whats wrong with them, its just a game right. Like, whatever.

Then I was sweating like a dog la after that, so super hot. Supposed to do chinese hw during GP lesson. Hey! We're suppose to make GP lesson productive right?? Heheh. So anyway, we didn't do anything Chinese then because we had to do a WS and we got back our GP compre test marks. WOA! I can't believe its my paper leh! I finally passed la. And then still quite okay. 33.5/50!!! How come ah..Usually I'd get like, 21 or 26.5 at the most la. Crazy.

And we had our maths, whew. Ms Chew didn't go through Maclaurin's series(I'm not sure how to spell that guy's name). They say that its one of the easiest topic for maths and I don't know how to do la! AHHHHHHHHHHH. And I passed my bio(23.5/35..eeks.), that Wong said I'm quite borderline :( Then there was Chem. Irritating Mrs Tan. I HATE _____!!!! No, I LOVE chem k. And chinese. I'm so dead. Mdm Lin said that the papers she marked so far were...horrible. I'm sure to be one of the horrible ones la. Chic.

Oh yea, YY and I were leaving for school when we saw this guy holding this bubbletea. Then she suggested looking for the shop near to the school and buy some. WA!!! We took like don't know how to find the place la. And the shop is like soooo...small..and the place is so sleazy! Damn dirty la. EEEEEEEEEEE, I hate to go these kind of places. And the drink I got totally...erm..lets just say it was not worth my $1.50. DAMN. The best thing was I couldn't finish it and when I went home I suddenly puked everything out. Gross.

HAHHAHA! Just now damn funny la. YY was telling about how far this guy in her secondary school could jump to when...
when...
WHEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
From the corner of my eyes I saw her feet slipping into this holey tile at the carpark near PJ. Its under construction la, like they're doing some re-tiling. Wa, I couldn't stop laughing la. I don't know why. Her feet looked damn cute, poking into the hole! I think I laughed like, 5 mins lo. Saliva nearly drip somemore. Shhh...HAHA!!!! Now thinking of it, I'm still laughing.

Kk, NOT FUNNY NOT FUNNY NOT FUNNY NOT FUNNY NOT FUNNY!

Eh! That shitty Shawn and his friends walked to the toilet when I was having my maths la. The look on his face was like, so happy. Like, I don't know la. Dog, I hate him.

Yes, Dog's the new word.

Okok, gotta go do my EOM and all that shit. Shall update another day. BYE!!! =)

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cappy! So cute right!?














Oh! Today's September 11th. I didn't even realise this until I watched Channel News Asia just now. AND, wa lao, the chopped up body is actually a maid that is killed by another maid! Can you believe that. If so right, the maid would have either taken MRT or taxi to deposit all the chopped up parts la. What if YOU were one of them standing near her when she was carrying the body parts in bags..How come got no smell ah...Imagine what she used to decapitate the other women's head. A chopper from her employer's kitchen? Wa, later she use it to chop up some meat for the family to eat..nice.

Anyway, my eldest sister's not coming to our house today. She said she's too tired la. Her tummy is so big! I feel quite scared just looking at it. And I like to wake Helena up, by vibrating my hand on her tummy, hehe. She'd kick around after that la. Ohmygod, its just so wierd that another thing is just living inside my sister. WOW, if I'm there at her delivery(most probably not..) the first thing I'll say is,"Welcome to our world!!!!"

Die! Next week I'm going to be an auntie...My heart's beating damn fast now. Cannot..AHHH. And I overheard my father talking(actually is not overhear la, its because my father talk damn loud when he's on the phone.) He was telling his friend about his operation. The doctor said his lower back had some problem with the spinal cord. Need to operate. SPINAL CORD!!!!?? Thats quite serious la. And the doctor said lucky he went for full body checkup earlier, if not, he might just wake up one day and find that he cannot walk. Also, its his lower back thats causing the main problems of his health. He should be going next week already. Many important things are happening next week. AHHH.

Wa, tomorrow have to go back school! So irritating. I'm NOT missing school! But I miss being with my friends la. HAHA. Anyway, should end here now. Don't have the mind to post anything already. BYEBYE!!!

Then the fool licks the dagger, as it's edges cut his tongue.

The first is Shawn's band logo which I regret designing for, and you'll know more about it if you read further on.
The second would be the one when I was playing around with my colour pencils in secondary one, drew it from the cover of one of my favourite book, White Fang. Used my eraser to make the texture of the fur.

I'm getting irritated. I think that Edric should just go bang wall. Keep calling and calling! Okay, at least I think its him. Wa, I already didn't answer the phone on purpose la, whats with his thick skull. He's such a die-hard...AND, I think he has no life la, can he go pester someone else...I should just tell him straight in the face man. ARGH.

Ya, that aside, I was watching CSI just now and there's this episode on Season5 about some guy being killed in a psychotic institution. And one of the suspects drew many pictures la. OH! He could draw man! Its damn nice. And Grissom said he's drawing were dark. There is a sketch of a cat with a spiked tail, kinda look like a club, and a tree with this crazy machine extending from one of its branches, and another is this head with snakes slithering out from everywhere. Damn nice la. There were more, but they only focused enough for me to see those three properly.

I received a birthday email from the person yesterday...like oh man...how come he's still visiting the website...And I can only imagine the look on the face when he finds out that my birthday is not anytime soon. HAHAHHAHHAHHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHAHAHHHAHHAHHAH.
Like, eeks.

I wish I had taken up Art, but I like Bio. I wonder how Mr Lee did it la. He's a Biology and Art teacher at my secondary school. Okay, I hate to admit it, but he's art is shitting nice. AND, he never gave anyone an A for art drawings in my class last time la, haha. I was at the MPR3 the other day for Chem remedial and I saw some art works there. They're alright la. I wonder if got any of Claryce's there. Can you believe that shit Shawn said that her artwork made him go into a poetic mood!!??!?!?! And its sooooooooo surreal and inspirational. Yes yes, take all your shit and saliva along with you to your stupid Hell k.

I feel like just going up to Shawn and slapping him on the face until my hands rot. I really do! He deserves it and he owes me that much. The look on his face! He had the 'get-away-from-me-everyone-is-staring' expression. No one can understand this anger in me. But I do.
Can you believe them!!!!?????? They(Shawn and shit Melvin) blocked me!? Ya, so what if they blocked right. Ya, thats not the problem. The friggin' porblem is...

THEY'RE STILL USING THE BAND LOGO I DREW FOR THEIR STUPID BAND WHICH TOTALLY SUCKS. Hey, if you don't want to talk to me, nevermind. YOU DON'T HAVE TO STILL USE THAT LOGO RIGHT! AND WHAT KIND OF NAME IS RE-CAST ANYWAY! THEY SHOULD JUST CALL THEMSELVES THE SHIT-CASTS! Block me block me block me block me...act like you don't know me! God, they're such users. Low-lifers that don't have any real use from themselves had to resort to using me...Like, damn them to my version of Hell!

Okay, that was way long ago okay. When I still didn't know what shit-holes they were. But anyway, that stupid Melvin don't have to put that logo in his friendster pic right. I should have charged them or something. Still made me edit like anything. Not happy with this or that. Stil nevermind! Added me to the bloody convo and told me what was wrong with my draft. Okay, I accept criticisms la. Aiya, anyway. Its over. I don't know why people say that I can't do anything already, since it is over.

But hey! Who says I can't do anything!? There are so many things that I can do to them you know! Like, what about executing all the killing methods which I found cool from movies or stories that I've read? Or using Ellie, on both of them!? Or, find their addresses in yellowpages, throw bomb bottles through their windows at night? Er...not much la. I'm going to pay with the justice after all that, which would be so not worth it, so Ellie's the best method.

I really must thank her. Without her, I wouldn't be able to find out about his lies and the others too. I swear its fated okay. I was just thinking of a way for my reprisal when my sister's husband gave just the key. Okay, so I must thank everyone who 'indirectly' even, assisted me at that point of time. Like, thank you to: Jeslyn, Terence, my anger management, my real friends.

The only reason why they're still living is because of the Law. Damn.


"He lit the final match. The match flared in the dim light of the setting sun. He let the match drop to the oil on the water surface and watched as flames erupted violently. Piercing screams tore through the air. Eporis took a step back to look on at them as the heat from the flames travelled slowly up the metal poles embedded in the lakebed below, burning into their flesh as his victims were tied tightly against them. He only left the area when he heard the distant sirens of the fire engines."

The Massacres.

31773


And you know what, 5months ago on the 8th, was Mr. Toothpick and Ms. Teacup's day. So you can imagine why every month the 8th will be so memorable.

Three Months Ago from Today

My other ambigram, created for my sister. Difficult to decipher, though. Click on image for larger view.

Visuanime













Today's Biology Mass Tutorial ended at 1.30pm. It was supposed to end at 1pm la. Feel like killing that Ms OH. And she admitted she's short, haha.
Anyway, today Ain brought her hamster. OHMYGOD, so freaking cute!!!! I think I'm soooooooo in LOVE with ZIBBY! I couldn't resist smelling and kissing him, heheh. He got this manly smell la, AHHH!!! And I asked Ain a very personal question about him, and YY said I blush la. And yes, I have secret thoughts...hee :D

She fed him Lemon Tea, oh, you should have seen the way he drank from the straw! I nearly died from looking at him! I gave him some Pocky. Wa, he just die-hard stuff into his food pouch man. Can see the shape of the stick la! AIYO!

Anyway, talking about Zibby reminds me of Skippy. I miss him. The 8th of every month is always a memorable event. BECAUSE, on this day 3 months ago...

(1) Skippy died, in the morning.
(2) I didn't cry for Skippy's death(wth...)
(3) I went to Ain's house and met Zibby, and her other pets of course.
(4) I had horrible cramps.
(5) Ellie's alter-ego quarrelled with Mr. S about the Bible and he broke up with her.
(6) She cried.(DAMN?!)

Oh man.....I used to talk about Skippy till TQ got jealous. You see, how much I'm in love with Skippy. TSK. But he died and I didn't even cry for him. WHY!? And I was so depressed yesterday. I think it was because so many things were happening all at once. I didn't have the mood to do anything. I mean, there wasn't anything that I should be upset about, but I nearly cried. HUH? Talk about a hormonal woman.

I was freaking trying to get some of my maths done at night la, but I was so bored and irritated by everything in my life, like there's no sense in it anymore. Anyway, I had someone to talk to at night, and after I selpt, I guess this morning I felt much better. Partly because of being with my friends...and...seeing Zibby. Ain, I think you better watch Zibby carefully k, one night I might just spiderman to your house and steal him for myself! Heh. I can't get his scent out of my head.

Anyway, YY and I left school for lunch later, at Lot 1. I hate the name Lot 1, why ONE? It could be just Lot 5 or Lot 3 right. Okay, nevermind. As I was saying, we were planning to eat at Long John's, but when we reached the top floor, YY had a GREAT idea. That is to watch a movie. HAHA. Anyway, we found out we had like don't know how many minutes left to buy our lunch from Long John's(at basement...) and stuff EVERYTHING in her turtle-shelly bag and run in for the show.

We watched 'The Longest Yard'. It damn funny la! Yes, everyone! Go watch it! There's like Adam Sandler, and Rob Schneider! Rob Schneider's my favourite of the favourites okay. Although he only came out at the last part(guess he was acting a super minor role) when he stood up and shouted some stupid stuff. Haha. Anyway, he acted in Hot Chicks and The Animal.
And right, there's this guy acting in The White Chicks, the African-American who did the robot dance and was in love with Tiffany, he's acting as the Cheeseburger guy in The Longest Yard! Its damn nice la. One of the better shows I've watched in a looooooooooooooooooong time.

Also, YY and I bought something for a certain someone today. Hehe...

I saw so many people from my secondary school at Lot 1 la. Damn irritating. OH! There was this kid in the cinema, damn annoying. I super hate children one la. And I can't stand it when people say that I was once a child too. SO!?

I miss my Grandma, going to call her later. She's such a hippie! She reads chinese comics, don't really like her her husband, rather be alone and not marry, she told me all about our history.

Okay, for those of you who don't know, her mother, who is my GREAT-GRANDMOTHER, was a University teacher in Singapore way back in the past. My great-grandmother was a Nonya(some Chinese mixed Eurasian or something) and this Caucasian man liked her la. He was working in Singapore from England at that time, and she liked him too. BUT! Theres always this 'but'. Her father agreed to marry her off to this cheena family and that guy said he didn't have any other wives back in China.

Found out that when she married him and went back to China with him, he had two other wives! Oh no! And that English man returned home after she left because, well, what could he do right, she's married already. She was very unhappy and died of TB at a very young age. She made my Great-grandfather promise that he'd let my Grandmother and her sister to study. Ya, so he enrolled them in Raffles Girls' Primary and later brought them back to China. Thats why my Grandmother forgot most of her English...My mother went to RGPS also la, like my sisters and I...I'm sure Helena will be enrolled in there too. HAHA.

I didn't see Shawn or Claryce in school these few days. Well, thats good, right? I hope they're out shopping and playing or something. PLEASE!!!!!!!!! I had a restless night again, I had this stupid dumb and wierd dream la. United Uniform's shirt had pockets?? Thats like soooooooo strange. I swear I sleep walked before. I remember when I were younger, I woke up in the middle of the night, took the towel and went to bathe. My father was shouting why was I bathing in the middle of the night la. I could hear him but it just didn't occur to me what I was really doing. Damn wierd la, and after that I went to sleep. Thats crazy..


"This will be what it is when decoded." He continued.
"swimming in a river of fame am i,
relishing on my next bloody massacre,
over still waters black as Obsidian,
be in search of my intentional hint,
a fire rages as friction lits Flint."

'The Garage Warehouse,
Widow Creek Park lot 666,
New York City."

The Massacres

To the Void of Nothingness.

I did this at the start of the year, inspired by "Angels and Demons". It's an ambigram.

An Ambigram, also known as an inversion, is a graphical figure that spells out not only its form as presented, but also when viewed as an mirror-image, or, in other cases, when rotated 180 degrees.

Daemonicus


You see why I can never believe in Him?
My father worked so hard, for most of his life. Now he's retiring, and you don't want to let him off. Okay, even if he could be stingy and naggy at certain times, but he's still a father. In a year, he can be out of Singapore for more than 4 months. My grandmother told me he was overseas because of work during my sister's birth. He couldn't even witness the growth of all of us properly. How bad he must feel when he calls home and he hear all our voices from the other side, so happy and he's alone there, tired from work.

He said the operation is going to be a major one. And it might happen next week. And next week I'm going to be a AUNTIE! If the operation is scheduled next week, there's a chance he might miss the birth of Helena. Yea, welcome to this world. The world is unfair. I talked to him just now. He was telling me about how worried he is with everything. I don't know what I can do, actually. Well, besides working hard la. I want to console him, but intimacy is not my family thing. And I don't know how to express my erm, empathy and worries towards him. We kind of do our own stuff behind our doors and don't say out certain things.

I don't get to see my father often, because he's constantly travelling. My mother, well, we talk mostly about TV programmes, because she sits in front of the TV when she gets home and usually does nothing else. My eldest sister, she's married, heavily pregnant and leading a happy life now. My second sister, er...her only activity is usually going out for classes and all that. Either that or she's in the room exercising her finger(controlling the mouse). AND, since I spend half of my day in school, I spend more time in the utility room typing crap than other things, I guess..

I have been having restless nights these few days. The past keep coming back to me. The people I wish to forget, the memories I want to remain hidden. Maybe my subconscious mind is telling me something.

"I sit here here locked inside my head, remembering everything you said. The silence gets us nowhere, gets us nowhere way too fast." Staind.
Ellie wrote a letter to Mr. S when she found out about him. Here are the contents of the letter.


To: Mr ASSSSSSSSSS.

Hatred deep in the bones they're ready to break,
The past memories and moments you easily forsaked,
As all my love will eventually turn to hate.
If the One continues not to look back,
Determination may be what I lack,
So does the play commences it's act.
Becareful of where you tread,
Be wary of the promises you once made,
Be watchful of the words that you then said.
Now I know why I kill,
The need of pain to fuel my anger,
Don't think I can survive any longer.
A million questions yet unanswered,
Your filthy soul I would have gladly devoured,
But as yet the flowing tears have stopped.

31773

Unpredictable.

To my father...His eyes...
I hope everything will be alright for him, and us.

The Elaborate Suicide.

Have I ever shown you my busted blister...







YES!!!!!
CHEM TEST IS FINALLY OVER!!!! PLUS THAT CHINESE MOCK EXAM!!!!
Weehee...I'm so happy that they're over and done with. Well, I tried my best during the two tests. But...

NO!!!!!!!!!!!
Notice that they're more exclamation marks here...Anyway, stupid la. Firstly, the chinese mock exam only came out ONE cheng yu from the 125 that I'd learnt. A PATHETIC 1...And you know what? I forgot what was that word la. I shouldn't have stayed up after America's Next Top Model to learn the 125 cheng yus man. They should just stop it. I mean, why put the tests on a day after so many TV programmes that I'll watch!? I should have just straightaway slept it off. Okay DAMN, I'm so pissed with myself. Its my fault. ARGH. And the chem assignment test...HOPEFULLY can pass. Haha.

Okay to start-off, I was walking home today after a game of Badminton with YY and Ain when I nearly got knocked down by an SBS bus. I was so angry la. The bloody driver die-hard lo, want to turn in. And that junction had no traffic lights. They should build one there! I wasn't crossing the road illegally okay! Shit him, can't he give in to a poor student trying to get home?

And you know what, I was watching for cars la. I didn't expect a bus! YES! YOU, DRIVER OF SBS BUS 307 AT THE TIME OF 6.14PM, turning in at TECK WHYE CRESCENT, you better watch out. I was trying to let this BMW to pass first la. And before I heard how close the engine sounds from the bus were, I felt something.

Maybe you can call it Spider-sense, but I'm arachnophobic, so it should be 'hey-there's-a-bus-going-to-hit-you' sense. It was so close la. I leaped across in bounds. Luckily the old Track and Field trainings are still in me. And more lucky is that my skirt didn't split...
That shit driver didn't even slow down, he was just freaking trying to swerve in man. He's lucky that I didn't bother to remember his face( I was still in a state of shock..), because if I did and I saw him some other day, I swear I'm going to slap him left right up down!

Anyway, reaching my estate I checked my phone la, guess my mother called. Found out that my parents went to this outdoor restaurant place behind our house for dinner, they asked me to meet them there. They ordered curry fish-head and this prawn dish. I can never know why my mother would ever think that I like prawns..
I was damn tired already and super full-up with all the sweet gasey drinks I drank, felt kind of drunk. My father kept nagging about why I didn't eat the shitty prawn thing. Seriously, it sucked la. I didn't taste the least bit of prawn in it!

I got a souvenir from the curry fish-head dish though. I took back 1/4 of its jaw. I did it the other time. Had a hard time clearing away the flesh and gel-like things. Its amazing what you'll find out when you collect these stuff la. The fish they used had many sets of teeth like a shark, always replacing the old and used. Its super cool. There was another time when I collected the eye-ball too. Okay, you know the fleshy parts of the eyeball people eat? Its not that. Its the hard one, the one that they spit out. Yes, there is some soft white powder thing and when you remove it you'll find an inner-core! Its shitting hard. Because I tried to bite it and it wouldn't even give me face by cracking..

Its quite translucent and small though. Around 0.7mm in diameter. Like, WOW. You get to know all this just from eating curry fish-head! Anyway, I'd gladly show you my two fish jaws, if you want to see it. The teeth are very sharp. Although I still can't remove the fishy smell. I used toothpaste and brush out the gums and stuff, but the smell wouldn't go away, yet. The older one doesn't have any smell though. I think the sun baked the smell away.

Oh ya, I found out that the fish they used to cook weren't fully grown, because in both of the jaws I collected, there is always this huge hole and when you look in it, you'll see this teeth inside! I think that is one of the adult teeth. I lost the eyeball thing, don't know where it rolled to. Damn.

There was once in secondary school, we were having this biology practical session. The dissection of a sheep's heart. We were supposed to cut it open and examine all the ventricles and atriums and bi-tri-cuspid valves and arteries. UAH!!! Cool man! I was wearing gloves la. My friends were too. Four to a heart. Anyway, they were quite scared with the heart, my other friends. The coldness and the bloody smell. I was handling it when I baa-ed la. "Myyyy hearttttttt..." HAHA, that Nurulia freaked out. I still go vibrate it in my hands. Damn, I was hoping she'd faint again.. I loved that prac session.

Tracy said I'm damn morbid...

Oh yea. Supposed to write this in for the longest time but I keep forgetting! I won't this time okay, YY! Haha. Alright. The other day, as usual, YY and I were walking to the bus stop nearer to Mac's. We bought ice cream la, from the uncle. Halfway walking YY's ice cream dripped on her hands, and she stopped to use water from her bottle to wash her hands. I helped her hold her things when I spotted this rambutan from the floor. I dared her to eat it and she took it up. I mean!? From the ground!? How do you know if its even not filled with maggots or something? You might get worms or something right? She's brave la.

Anyway, we walked to behind Mac's the toilets to wash her hands and the rambutan. She opened it up and ate it la. Kept saying that its fresh and sweet. And she said to look for more on the way back across to the bus stop. HA! Thats like so funny! Aiya, but then we had worthy competitors la. Some Obasans saw we were looking for rambutans and they followed us. We couldn't find any more. She was disappointed. Anyway, rambutan fruiting season is over, so don't think of finding anymore under those rambutan trees across the road from Mac's. HA.

YY's a wierd person. Her mood can change super quickly. HAHA, like one moment she's as stone and shocked by flying beetles, the next as aggressive when playing badminton. She's damn funny la, good crapping friend. One of my best friends in PJ, the other is the one and only STEEL!!! Opps, I mean IRON. Hey wait, it should be AIN. Heheh...don't talk about the milo event anymore...Okay, YY's damn sporting. That day Ain and I dared her to stuff two pandan cakes bought from stall 1, in her mouth at once la. AND SHE DID IT. Is she like a hamster!?
Hamsters have food pouches in their cheeks la. Hey, if you're reading this, the next time would be three k, YY!

8 Stanza's the Way to Go.

Moley got fried today.
I nearly died of an accident today,
Bus-uncle of 307's so going to pay!

That lucky Mr Tan.
Husband of Mrs Tan,
Extended chem tutorials are so 'fun'!

Love being a Chinese?
Hate learning Chinese,
Damn that 125 cheng yus!

Addicted to Top Model.
Tyra's an okay model,
She has the hair of a Burmese Poodle!

Picking sweet ripe rambutans.
Obasan-rivals took away the rest of the rambutans,
Still hate that shitty Mrs Tan!

Collecting biological parts is interesting.
But not when Mr. S thinks Ms. C's witty and interesting,
So Mr. S took Ellie's alter-ego as another fling!

The Da Vinci's Code reminds me of National Treasure.
Times I have had with my friends I will always treasure,
Like playing a super game of Badminton for leisure!

I think these are what I have to say.
Will not listen to what Sweet-talker Mr. S said,
Going to end this entry for today.

Bye.

Benzene rings VS Dark-eye rings

What is with this guy man...

Whew, managed to finish my chem tys questions. Well, not all of them are done la, HAHA. I slept like 9hrs la, and its still early, I can't believe I feel so tired. This is what happens when you take up chem okay. Anyway, was supposed to start work at 2pm today. BUT, as usual, I woke up like 1+pm la. Yesterday slept so late ma, haha. And its all because of the stupid Chemistry tutorial..Did it till 3+am.

See how much of my time Chemistry takes up???

I really want to say I hate chem, because I really do. But no, I love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love it. I hope the reverse psychology helps.

And tomorrow I'm supposed to start studying on studying Alcohols and don't-know-what-shit chapter for the assignment test on Tuesday. Monday I will have to learn CHENG YU 1-5! I don't understand why all the chinese teachers keep on telling us why JC Chinese is different.

Their reasons:
-We don't use the ci2 yu3 shou3 ce4(some dumb chinese words book)
-Its more interesting??!?!?!?!
-It more difficult

Well, the first two reasons are invalid, because we still have to refer to all the pieces of paper to learn the cheng yu, and most of them I've never seen before. K wait, I must tell you, my chinese is the kind that sort of cannot make-it when speaking orally la. HAHA. And, to me, its not that interesting because don't have story to read. You know we used to read from the ke4 ben3 right..I only like chinese lessons when our teacher shows us films!(but thats super rare). And it is difficult. Luckily I taking Chinese AO. Lend me a wall if I take Chinese A man.

Oh ya, I still have tonnes of homework to be completed. Like the stupid Chem revision tutorial..And maths revision tutorial. Have to do Chinese TYS also, just in case.
I mean like, HELLO??? I don't need sleep huh. They keep saying make use of our time during the holidays to study and revise. Wa, with all the homework they pile us up with, I think only if I don't sleep for the next whole week I can finish my revision. I'm feeling super stressed up. I don't want to see Mr Yeo next year!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm damn happy that Shawn's band didn't get to perform on Teacher's Day. Weehee! Its like, this guy wrote this testimonial on his friendster that he might get in la. I think he went to spread it around. Like, SHUT UP. And he was playing soccer that day again! He always play soccer! I mean, that should be good. I suddenly remembered his expression and actions the day I went back to find him. What a BAST. Last time before I knew the truth, I was like -> WHY WHY WHY???

Now I'm like -> DIE DIE DIE!!!!

Yes, I'm openly plotting his death okay. So anyone with a good idea come and tell me how exactly to improve on my already existing plans with using Ellie on him. He can say so many lies! Shit, everytime he sees me, he faster look away la. Cannot right? Because when he look away I cannot do the magic-middle events on him..Haha, not that I'm that crude la. Wa, forgot to tell you all. That day before going for bio tutorial, when I was climbing up along the fourth floor stairs, I could see his friends and him at the field. I shouted,"ASSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!"

Quite loudly la. HA, I think he should have heard it. Okay, so anybody from my college. If you hear a sudden "ASSSSSSSSS!!!!" or "DIEEEEEEEEEE!!!", you'll know its for someone at the field. Lucky thing I am good at escapades, later get scolded by the toilet auntie like that time again...Irritating.

Oh yea, I must thank Jeslyn for helping me with the testimonial. HAHA, wa I didn't know she would write that la. Scolding-people-till-they-faint kung fu. And that she and I are famous for that. HA!! Anyway, that someone deserves it.

By the way, my father was screaming into the phone to this guy not entertaining his call in the afternoon. He kind of whacked off the car's rearview mirror. My father sent it for damages, amounting up to $1500. The guy like quite reluctant to pay la, then say my father's harrassing him. Er..isn't harressing like for girls to use. HA, but anyway, I can't understand why he needed to talk so loud on the phone la, damn annoying. Everytime make overseas phone call also. Its not as if the other side has hearing problems what. I was trying to do the chem la. Already frustrating enough when you find out you don't know what dumb structure J has when you have to jump from aldehydes to acids!?

He told the guy that he's willing for him to pay any amount he wants. I mean, what if that guy only wants to pay like $100??? Its 1/15 of the whole amount! What has my father been teaching me for the past 16+ years? Be as cheapo as you can. He even called the lawyer la. Lawyer don't have to pay meh? I'm not sure what they're thinking. But I hope my father won't be too moody. About his back problems and all. The doctors still cannot diagnose what exactly is that lump in his back la. I hope its not cells with oncogenes in it! Yes, Mr GAYbriel Wong, I do you justice k..

Ahh, my eyelids are like half-shut right now. Alright, I should end soon then.


The Ticking Letterbomb

Footfalls by the corridor,
Creaks from behind the wall.
Scratches the nails deftly made,
As the last amethyst rays fade.

Stillness turned to reality,
As night unfolds a tragedy.
The millitia scaled the fences,
Corpses filled bloody trenches.

Inside the restless child fights for solace,
Alone her brother battled the menace.
For weeks the soldiers drove solely on blood lust,
For months medical-aids assembled crumbling dust.

"Are we demented?
Or am I disturbed?
The space that's between insane and insecure.
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused.
For lack of a better world and that's my best excuse."


You know something?

Tell me I LOVE chem.