"Want Upsize?"

My sister found a job for me!

It's at a company called Hempel, that's in Tuas, near the sea/checkpoint so it's very far in.

I checked the bus directory and there's only like one bus that goes in the route, which takes about 45-60 minutes to travel there! Crazy right. And that's from Boon Lay Interchange you know.

So today I went down for an interview for the position of HR assistant and the pay is S$8.50 per hour!

Can you believe it?

In one day I can earn one driving lesson money!

Now I know how HR Managers can earn so much.

Anyway, it's a Danish company that does the manufacturing of paint and they sell it to the companies in the shipyard at Tuas, I think.

The HR Manager said there's no canteen nearby so I'd have to pack lunch, or sometimes the colleagues there would cook, or sometimes one of them would drive us out for lunch, which is very okay with me because I'm not very good with social skills so I hate eating outside alone. 

It makes me feel very depressed and very very afraid. And it's not because I don't like the lack of company.

And you know what's the best thing?

There's a shuttle bus in the morning that's right across my flat! It says so on the sheet.

"Clementi Ave 5, opposite Block 3*&!"

Although they leave like 7.20am, but I still think it's better than squeezing in with all the smelly and grumpy people going to work in the morning in trains and buses.

So scary.

I hate taking trains, especially when I'm alone because of my slight social phobia and...train seats face one another and it's like you have to face other people. Or during peak hours and your personal space is invaded from all sides. 

Bus seats are much more private. You don't have to face people or accidentally look into the person across you in the eye and then quickly look away and pretend you're totally uninterested in them picking their nose or their underwear is showing or something.

I realise this is why I have this other phobia of ordering food from people at the counter. 

Like you know, fast food restaurants or something. 

Especially if I have to talk a lot.

For example, 

 

Me: Erm, one Double Cheeseburger meal, please.

Cashier: Want upsize?

Me: Nope. Er, can I have more chilli sauce? Thanks.

Cashier: Okay okay. How about drink? Got Coke, Sprite, Green Tea, 7 Up...

Me: Sprite.

Cashier: Ah, member?

Me: No...

Cashier: All together $5.35. 

Me: Okay.

Cashier: (Looks behind her shoulder) ONE DOUBLE CHEESBURGER MEAL!

 

I mean, these kind of social interactions that last more than 3 sentences sort of requires you to at least establish some eye contact.

I'm not good with eye contact.

My heart beats really fast and I have this 'fight or flight' feeling and I always stumble on my words, especially if it's a good looking person behind the counter.

Or like when I walk on the streets, I don't dare to look into people's eyes or faces if they are facing my direction.

Especially if it's a guy.

You know, some guys might disagree with what I'm going to say next but it's totally true. Because I'm not the only one who thinks this way.

So you look at a guy, while you're sitting on a bench eating something, or when you're walking down the street. You just happen to look at him while you're people-watching and he suddenly realises someone's looking.

The body language men usually displays shows a bit of 'strutting'.

The classic "oh there's a girl looking at me, maybe she's interested", and either he might walk with a straighter back in puffing out his chest (it's subtle) and the facial muscles relaxes and the only active things is his AHEM and his eyes. 

Or, he'll give you that "What the hell are you looking at, I know I'm hot" (when he freaking isn't!) look.

Or, if he just happens to look into your eyes when you happen to look at him, and he does a double take to check you out and see if you're looking interested.

Sometimes, people can be so predictable.

For me, I don't like strangers to look at me because I'll keep thinking there's food stuck in my teeth or at the side of my mouth or I'm dressed inappropriately for outdoors.

That's why I feel much more comfortable looking at women. 

Especially when they're walking alone on the street. 

And especially if they're hot. 

Usually they won't think too much because I'm a girl with a poker face when actually my mind is like totally checking her out. 

Plus, they're much much much more better looking women than men in Singapore.

So that's saying a lot.

What was I talking about?

Oh yes, my new job.

It'll be only for a month, which is good because I'm going Bali and all that. I'm starting work this coming Monday. I hope the work is not too difficult.

Although I spent the first part of the year filling up my brain with stuff, I have been spending the last month making it nice and empty for the next semester, and my sister only told me about this job like yesterday, so I don't know if I'm prepared enough.

Hmm.

The Case of the Mysterious Gasper.

The other night when I was making bread to be baked in the oven and this was quite late, at about 1am, I heard a gasping sound.

You know like you hear someone 'expiring', with a wheezing sound?

It was freaking scary.

I couldn't tell where the sound came from, except that it was on the kitchen cabinet beside the fridge where the microwave and the thermal bottles are.

I was thinking it might be some kind of cockroach/lizard trying to play hide and seek with me or establishing some mating ritual with one another. 

I stood still and tried to listen to the sound, but it seemed like every time I tried to focus on the sound, it sounded indistinct and far away.

After that, I couldn't care less and went back to my room.

Then the next night, I was playing with Voldie, trying to feed him some hammy 'doughnut' treat.

That's his cage on the floor.

"WHO DAT?!", thought Voldie.

Here's Voldemort giving me the death-stare before he waves his wand (cannot be seen from this angle) and delivers the killing curse on me.

AVADA KEDAVRA!

That's his new house by the way, the blue one. My sister bought it and it has this handy 'spade' with slots that you can use to scoop up the sand inside and it sieves out the hammy shit! So innovative right. I bet it's a Japanese creation.

Anyway, he looks old and in the second photo of him you can see his infected ear :((

I was hiding more 'doughnut' treats at different parts of his cage to stimulate his brain. 

I read my biopsych textbook and they said rats that grew up in enriching environments with colourful pictures and obstacles in their cage, they solve maze faster than rats living in unenriched environments. I've been doing this since he's young and he does seem to be more 'intelligent' than my other hamsters that I used to have. 

Maybe besides Skippy.

Or maybe it's the breeding from different petshops.

I was talking to Voldie when all of a sudden, I heard the gasping sound again.

Right behind me.

"Zsiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...."

I sort of leaped out of the stool I was sitting on and I tried looking around for the source of the sound.

I tried putting my head near the fridge, but it only had some ticking and soft cracking sound, might be from the defrosting of food in the freezer or whatever.

"Where the hell is it from?!", I thought in my mind.

I quickly closed the cage door and said bye to Voldie and faced my good ear towards the area which had the gasping sound.

"Zsiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...................."

Omg there it was again!

Ernie was helping me to look.

"Mommy! I think it's coming from there!"

"Zsiiiiiiiiiiiiiii........"

"Ernie! Did you hear it!? Where did it originate from!!?", I asked.

"It's definitely coming from there, Mommy! The thermal bottles!", said Ernie, whilst pointing towards the bottles.

I went to take a closer look.

"Zsiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..........................", gasped the water bottle.

Apparently, the hot water inside the bottle creates condensation on the inside of the cup covering it, and to let the hot air that has expanded to escape, it sort of squeezes out from the cap. The wet sucking/gasping sound is due to the condensation and air escaping.

Case solved.

Megan's Body.

Can you believe this is what Megan Fox looks like when she's supposed to look erm, awful?

Still looks fabulous to me though.

Her cheekbones, jawline, nose, lips, eyes, eyebrow, hair...

So hot!

<3

Smoke Rings!

Omg! You guys should really go to this website and see this video!

I always visit this website called wtf nature. It has like awesome posts, and they really give you the WTF?! feeling, sometimes. Haha.

"A rare sight was witnessed at Iceland's Eyjafjallajökull volcano recently when it let off this smoke ring. Caught on camera by volcano hunters and photographers Donna and Steve O'Meara, the ring of steam and gas rose into the atmosphere for a few minutes before dissipating."

http://community.livejournal.com/wtf_nature/469104.html

I've heard of people blowing smoke rings with cigarette smoke but volcanoes?!

So nature has been doing it long before humans came along.

Hmm.

One Bullet Away.

Remember my favourite series called Generation Kill about this elite recon marine unit that had a reporter embedded with them during the invasion of Iraq?

Anyway, one of the officers that I liked was Lt. Nate Fick. He's a Dartmouth graduate (which is supposedly some well-known and prestigious school in America) and he went join the Marines for experience and etc.

The thing is, he wrote a book called One Bullet Away, which tells the story of 5 years from studying in Dartmouth to being a Marine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZHHfrKpp4M&feature=related

I've just watched interviews being done with him.

He seems very humble and very intelligent. In this interview where this old guy (I think he's some professor or something) asks him about his experience, the way he spoke, it just shows how intelligent he is!

And he was one of the characters I really admired when I watched Generation Kill.

And even more now after 'getting to know' him through his point of view in different things through watching interviews.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaQV0o55pOM&feature=channel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mBr1UydKf0&feature=related

It gets more interesting, in the second half of the interview.

And the song really sucks. So you should fast forward it.

I want to get his book!

I must admit before watching Generation Kill, I was very ignorant about the Iraq War. Or any wars that was happening, besides World War one and two that I learned in history lessons.

Singapore's too safe.

When 9/11 happened, and there was such a big media coverage on it, I remember sitting in the living room thinking, "Okay, terrorist attack. Many people died."

And I focused on other stupid teenager concerns that I had straight after that. I was 12 at that time when 9/11 happened.

I didn't know anything about warfare, any type of trauma soldiers have when going into war, whether emotional, psychological, besides physical traumas.
Or how they had as Nate Fick said, a 'dead-man-walking' kind of mentality, where they knew that anytime they could die.

I've never had to be in this kind of situation, where any minute I could get shot or bombed to death. I've never had anyone around me dying suddenly by a 'violent' or intentional death.

I've never had to shoot a stranger in another different country and had to get integrated back into 'normal' society and live life the way others/I used to do, even with the knowledge/experience of what I did during a war.

Or have my life put in an officer's hands when orders are passed down to pass through a hostile city.

It's just I've realised that there are so many things about Singapore that makes us take advantage of and that it's somehow not realistic.

I mean, I feel lucky I was not born in a country experiencing war, famine, drought or under the rule of a tyrant.

But when I see people around me now, being in the same state of mind I was in until a few years ago, of ignorance, naivety and consequently, 'bliss', it just makes me question the society that I grew up with.

I mean, I didn't undergo any NS training or whatever. What if someone bombed the Istana one fine day?

What will I do? 

What can I do for my country? 

Will I even want to do anything? 

Will others even want to do anything? 

Of course the men who are still in the NS or whatever will do it, for the rest of us.

I just feel it's strange, growing up in a society where everything is provided for us that it makes me feel unprepared.

And you know I don't like to be unprepared.

I want to get to know people like Nathaniel Fick. 

Or Prof P. 

Who's experienced who-knows-what in his studies of monkeys in rural areas of Indonesia and how he learned Greek and etc. 

Or get to know the point of views of the Iraqi people on the war. 

How they had to live everyday without knowing if suddenly their houses will be bombed and how their lives were disrupted by it.

It's just scary how many things have been going on around the world like natural disasters and wars when I've been living in this safe cocoon being clueless.

Doing something bad may be a sin, but isn't indifference a form of sin too?

H2O2 + KI = The Vengeance Formulation.

Damn this ear infection.

Ernie asked me a question today.

Ernie: Mommy, how long does it take for the moon to circle Earth?

Me: Why Ernikins, one month of course.

Ernie: How would you know that? From science class?

Me: Ernie, I would have thought you having nothing but an anus would understand the predicament of women. Moon cycle = Menstrual cycle. It's a monthly thing.

Ernie: Oh, okay mommy.

I should seriously get a life.

On a different note, watch this!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6ILGwJn1pI

Awesome.

I don't know why it's called Elephant's Toothpaste. Maybe it's because there so much 'foam' produced that it could be used to clean an Elephant's mouth. Or, it's really what makes up Elephant's toothpaste.

You get it by adding Hydrogen Peroxide and saturated Potassium Iodide together.

Sheldon used it to take revenge on his colleague who punched a hole in his office wall and slowly filled the room up with Helium gas, making Sheldon's voice becoming very high pitched, hahaha! And that was when Sheldon was on a radio talk show, live.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHQVKu2guWQ&feature=related

So the episode was called the Vengeance Formulation.

I want!

Megan Megan Megan.

Disney's remake of it's Princesses.

That's the 'Little' Mermaid, Beauty, Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty and Alice.

If you want my opinion, I think Snow White in this sexed up version is the least sexy.

Number one would be Little Mermaid, then Beauty, then Sleeping Beauty, and Alice (for her upskirt, must give her chance right?), Cinderella (she's looks too much like a bimbo with her mouth open like that), then Snow White (her face don't suit the body at all!).

Photo taken from PITNB.

Little Mermaid is like freaking hot please! Not forgetting she has a tail.

Stop thinking dirty.

I think it's her flaming red hair and her erm, pose. 

Honestly she's wearing the least clothes, because her tail is part of her body.

HAHAHAHAHA.

And the recent graphic novel 'ideal' sexy look for women is like huge boobs, small waist, big hips and thick thighs.

I know it's like damn sexy or whatever guys like. I mean, I like the rest too.

But the thick thighs a bit too big for me. Or 'rounded'.

Hmm.

They should get real life people to act as them!

Or or!

They should get Megan Fox to do all the Princesses!

Omg!

With different looks!

She'll be perfect!

Best idea ever right??!

Disney should use my idea on this.

Yes, they should definitely use my idea on this.

Oh my god. I sound like Ray Pearson on Ripfuel.

Don't get like Angelina Jolie. Her lips can smother you to death like those babies from Alien.

Or like who else everyone thinks is pretty.

Oh I know, Taylor Swift. Omg, can die. I hate her pinched look.

And Scarlett Johansson.

Too nugget-y. Cannot.

Seriously, Disney should let me decide on this.

I mean, sometimes I really think people settle for far too little. Okay, I'll admit everyone has their own preferences, but sometimes their taste is like totally unreasonable.

Like Mischa Barton.

You know when the OC came out and she was in it and everyone (around me, or in like the media) started saying she's such a darling, so pretty, etc etc.

HELLO!?

If she's pretty, half the girls in America (including those who after you make them lose weight) will be pretty also okay.

Don't always say I very mean to girls because I'm jealous of their so-called beauty. I'm not! I'm a true 'appreciator' of beauty. I'm talking about physical beauty in the Westernised society. 

The thing is, I really can't understand how some people can view certain celebrities as 'beautiful'.

Like Felicia Chin.

Honestly, she hasn't done anything to me, besides being very annoying in the way she act in shows. But I don't understand why people will think she's pretty!

I mean, her figure is only average, not say like er, who's that person, Joanne Peh kind, who at least has got nice boobs and er thin/great figure. And her looks? So-so only!

There are so many other people better looking than her!

How can people settle for less?

Stop saying I'm superficial.

Okay, let me give you an example.

I know how a lot of girls like that Nat Ho guy because he's good looking. I'll admit he's okay, better than most men in Singapore anyway, but what the hell!?

His acting! And his Chinese!

How come so many actors in Mediacorp don't feel ashamed? I mean, maybe they are more proficient in English, verbal-wise, like you know Adrian Pang and Pierre Png, but how can they have the bravery to act in a Chinese show when their Chinese sucks like shit?!

In terms of pronunciation.

I won't speak Mandarin because I myself feel self-conscious about it, not that I'm horribly bad like them, with the English-educated-brought-up accent kind of thing.

You know, I may sound very mean. Because instead of commenting how brave they are, I'm like insulting them.

But have they spared a thought for like-minded people in Singapore like me?

Have they thought about how weird they sound? Or how bad their acting is?

I'm not saying I can act better than them. What I'm trying to get at is, if you can't act, then don't. And because one should know what proper acting requires and entails, then don't do it when you don't fulfill the requirements!

This is why I don't watch Mediacorp dramas, besides a bit of the Little Nonya that time, because I wanted to see the Joanne Peh getting raped and how she got crazy part (I saw it from advertisements), hahaha!

Anyone still remember the scene where she was crazy and she looked up at the ceiling? Omg she looked like a ghost! Although it was supposed to be sort of a sad scene, I couldn't help but bursting out laughing!

Anyway, yes. Or like you know, Toby Maguire. I think they got the wrong guy to act as Spiderman. The Peter Parker I saw from cartoons was sort of blond-haired and you know, tall and broad-shouldered.

Why did they get some bug-eyed pale and pasty guy to act as him!?

I know Peter Parker's supposed to be a geek, but Toby Maguire is too...different!

And...John Mayer. Who's like an asshole and I don't understand why so many girls like him! Or like Enrique Iglesias. Sexy!!!?? I only want to remove that mole on his face!

What's wrong with people? I really can't understand!

No, actually I do. They just have bad taste. Really.

I always say this when we watched TV and like you know sometimes my mom watched Channel U and that time they had this show that had guys competing to be the best looking guy or whatever.

"OMG MOMMY! IF HE'S HANDSOME, I CAN GO FOR SEX-CHANGE SURGERY, BIND MY BOOBS, TAKE STEROIDS AND UNDERGO HORMONE TREATMENT, CUT MY HAIR AND BE HANDSOME TOO!"

That always earns me a look and, "Cannot say other people ah!!"

Seriously. The world has gone to the dogs.

Another thing I really hate is how so many people act their stereotype.

Let me give you an example.

You know how sometimes you watch those reality shows like America's Next Top Model, or Survivor, or I Survived A Japanese Game Show and it's usually this black woman or guy (I say usually) that says, "I'm gonna win, because I'm the best here! No one is better than me." and acts all diva-like and etc? (But they usually get kicked out very quickly)

A lot of black/Hispanic people act that way, because I heard it's so-called the minority mentality.

 

Heard of the self-fulfilling prophecy? It's something we learn in Psychology. Maybe it's what happened to them.

Or like how so many gay men act their stereotype.

In terms of looks and attitude.

Like they always have the very obviously-trimmed eyebrows, tight shirts and they usually dress in flamboyant colours and style. And they MUST act extremely gay, to convey it to others around them. Maybe it's not conscious, because it might be their subconscious feeling/having low self-worth because of their sexual identity. I don't know.

I don't blame these people, but I mean, don't they watch shows and tell that they themselves are acting like them?

Or like you know, Black women who act very diva-like.

"Girlfriend!? You do not wanna mess with me!"

They always say that right?! And they always act like that in reality shows! You may argue reality shows are very unrealistic, but there are so many people I see in real-life acting that way!

And I knew Ricky Martin is gay!

Everyone kept saying how freaking sexy he was when he sang that stupid football song or whatever like 10 years ago. I distinctly remember my sisters and I were talking about him then, and I said, "But he looks so gay!"

I knew it!

It's the way he acted, and the way he dressed, I think. 

Which man would wear those tight pants that showed off the size of their crotch or opened up their collar to show off their chest and have that polished and 'pruned' look and not be gay?

I have nothing against gays. I mean it. I just don't like how most of them MUST act so very feminine and diva-like.

Wait, what was I talking about?

Oh yes, sexy Disney Princesses.

Schizophrenia has one symptoms of tangential-speech. Like if you ask a Shizoid a question, they'll answer off-tangent to that question, talking about totally unrelated things in the end.

Sometimes people say I'm very off-tangent when they ask me things. 

It's not that I am Schizophrenic, I think it's because my mind sometimes work too fast for me to stop myself from summarising things or allow me to properly get to my point. It's like I feel every detail in a story is too important. Even other details in other stories that are related to something I"m talking about, I feel that I must say it.

Because I really can't stand it when people gives me a poor summary of things. And leave me hanging there in their summarised version that lacks important details.

See? Off-tangent again. I'm really not consciously doing this.

Oh yes, Megan Fox.

Okay, here are her older photos.

And here are the more recent photos.

Maybe it's the make-up, her change in eyebrow shape-pruning and she lost weight, but it seems like she did something to her face. I still love her like crazy. She's too hot to be human. But I think she did something to her eyes. Bigger is it?

Or is it because she lost weight, that's why it looks bigger?

I'm so troubled. Can she gain weight again so I can tell properly?

Or maybe if I were nice this whole year and stop talking mean things about people, maybe Santa will send her to my life and be my girlfriend.

I'm going to arm-candy her for my whole life, I swear.

Anyway, here's a treat for y'all.

 

It may not be one of her most revealing photos, but the boobs! And her messy hair.

Ahhhh~

Oh. my. fox.

Her skin looks really good here. And I want her hair!

True sexy/beauty is how Megan Fox can look good in anything.

Big Bang Theory!

This is Rajesh Koothrappali from Big Bang Theory.

He has selective mutism, meaning he can't speak a single thing when there are women around him. Only if he drink alcoholic drinks. And if he needs to say something, he'll have to whisper it to his male friends.

I love Big Bang Theory.

They're all geeks, like Koothrappali is an Astrophysicist 

and Sheldon Cooper is a theoretical physicist,

Leonard Hofstader's an experimental physicist,

and I think Howard Wolowitz has a Masters in Mechanical Engineering.

The rest of them have Phds and Sheldon often say how Howard is like on an intellectually lower level than them because of it, haha!

I've been re-watching Season 2 recently. It's like a geek version of Friends.

It's about how they 'deal' with life, trying to get girls, when they're so geeky with all their geeky activities and they have a neighbour called Penny who's an aspiring actress, but works at the Cheesecake Factory as a waitress in the mean time. And she's hot, to them, hahaha!

I like her boobs.

Anyway, can't wait to go Taiwan with my mom and sister next month! 

Although I think the toilet schedule will be a major problem for me.

Oh oh.

I feel like cutting my hair. Real short.

In other news, Fox-Watch!

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